Thursday, October 18, 2007

pampalubag loob

i attempted to tidy-up my already sabog eyebrows this afternoon and ended up frustrated. I realized, hindi pala talaga ako marunong. now, my eyebrows are not congruent, hindi na sila pantay. But I consoled myself by saying, "wala namang ibang makakakita kundi mama at kapatid ko lang."

So basically, this is how my sembreak has gone so far--nakapagpluck na ako ng kilay, nagvivideoke once in a while with my sister, nanonood ng movies na paulit-ulit, nag-iinternet, nagtetext paminsan-minsan, naghuhugas ng pinggan at nagsasaing kapag napag-utusan, nanonood ng telebisyon, at natutulog ng mahimbing.

Haaaayy. I can't wait for our Enchanted Kingdom getaway. On that day, I'm going to set aside my frustrations in life and have pure fun with FRIENDS! Aba, going through the obstacles of last sem is pretty tough, noh! We deserve to enjoy our break naman. And for me, this EK thing would be another consolation. After all, I wouldn't be able to take pleasure looking at my grades. I just feel thay're not worth all the trouble and stress I went through this sem.

Sana alam kasi nila yung pinagdaan namin, maski yung gastos man lang. Grabe, if my parents were my own professors, they'd probably give me a flat one, not because I'm their daughter but because of all the expenses i willingly paid for. wahahaha! ganun ka-biased dapat! Syempre, mahirap na buhay ngayon eh! Okay, okay, enough of your bitterness, dez! Whatever ;p

Hhmmm, bakit ba hirap akong iconceal ang emotions ko, noh? Hehehe! Well, Anyways.. Aside from pittying myself, doing unproductive activities, and anticipating for that EK day, I'm planning to have my hair cut. Well, having it layered isn't something new, but this new thing i tried--i had it cut straight--isn't really spectacular. It looks more lika a wig than real hair, i guess. So i'll have it layered. I like Toni Gonzaga's hair, I saw it on PBB a while ago.

I also can't wait to see my HS friends. I can't wait to share stories with them. They'll probably be shocked and at the same time be happy when they learn that dj and i are together again. Hhaayy. That fact is one of my life's simple joys. Isa rin yan sa mga pampalubag loob ko. Ano naman kung mababa grades ko, at least mahal nya naman ako. BBOOOGGGSSSHH! Wahahaha! I'm just trying to make myself laugh. ;p


How come Yahoo! Messenger is a bit weird tonight? I was automatically signed off. Now that I'm trying to sign back in, it always fails. It's quite irritating. Hhaayy.

And here's another weird thing: every night, our phone would ring once. And we pick it up, it's just the dial tone we hear. And then it just rings and rings. Pero once lang talaga. Pag hinabol mong sagutin, dial tone lang naman. Tapos maya-maya magriring ulit ng isang beses. At dial tone lang naman ulit pag pinick-up mo.

RRIIIIINNNNGGG..
Hello?
eeeeeeennnnggggkkk (dial tone)

RRIIIIINNNNGGG..
Hello?
eeeeeeennnnggggkkk (dial tone)

RRIIIIINNNNGGG..
Hello?
eeeeeeennnnggggkkk (dial tone)

Wahahaha! Paulit-ulit noh? Ganun kasi kapaulit-ulit yung phone call na yun. Haay. Must be one of my admirers. Bwahahahaha! isa pang BBOOOOGGSSHH for me. Again, I'm just trying to make myself laugh here. Ambagal kasi magdownload nung mga pictures na ninanakaw ko sa multiply ni djhay eh. Ngayon ko lang naisipan magnakaw dahil alam kong super tedious magdownload ng pictures, lalo na kapag dial up ka lang. Huhuhu. Anybody kind enough to sponsor a DSL / Broadband connection for a very pretty woman named DEZ? Donations would be greatly appreciated. Wahahaha. bleh!

It's 1:30 a.m. and it's feeling a little bit eerrie here. I'm sure hindi ako magigising ng maaga to accompany my mom sa palengke. Haaaayy. Ambagal kasi ng dial up ;(

Thursday, September 27, 2007

wag kang SALBAHE!

While researching for our documentary in BROADCASTjournalism, I came across with this website which defines Filipinos in a very rude way.

Hindi ko alam kung bakit ako nagagalit. Marahil, hindi ko matanggap na gayun ang tingin sa atin ng ibang mga lahi. Nagagalit ako dahil alam kong talagang kagaguhan lang yung nakasulat sa website na iyon. Marahil din, nagagalit ako dahil hindi ko matanggap na may bahid ng katotohanan ang kanyang mga opinyon.

Pilipino ako, wala na lang pakialaman. Kung sino man ang nagsulat nito, MAMAMATAY ka rin, tandaan mo yan!

Filipino--people from an island located in southeast asia (not east asia) called philippines.

living here for more than 5 years.. i find that most filipinos are:

1. lazy
(if you wanna get something done in this country you gotta wait at least 2 weeks.. when you can get it done in 3 days in the states.. -filipinos, come on it's true.. if you've never gone out of your country well too bad)

2. filipinos think all the foreigners are rich

3. their language sounds annoying..
(tagal tagal mahal ko kang yang kayo nang)

4. filipino women are desperate to marry foreigners..
because the filipino men are too poor they wanna get out of poverty through marrying a rich foreigner (usually age of 60+ you can see a lot of filipino young woman& white old grandpa couples in the philippines)

5. filipinos think that the philippines is better than indonesia or malaysia or other neighboring countries of southeast asia when they're all equally poor

6. they are like little kids. they just wanna hve fun that's why their country's so poor

7. They think UP, which is apparently... the best university in the philippines .. is one of the top universities of the world. when in fact, its rank is so low that its name is no where to be found on the booklet of top 500 universities in the world (a supplement to Time in 2002)

>>segue: Baka kasi UST daw ang the best university, d kaya? wahahaha. BIASED, oo na!

8. THEY ARE SHORT.
5' is tall in this country.

9. they are noisy.
their babbling mouths never shut up.

10. filipinos are desperate american wanna bes and they're such copy cats they must copy everything from the states like their tv shows and they wanna have their children born in the states so that they can be american citizens

11. their taglish or watever it's called, which is mixture of their language called tagalog and english, is ANNOYING don't fuck our language up why do you must copy everything from us just speak your damn language don't mix it with ours and make it sound hella fucking irritating and annoying

12. their diet is meat and rice

Okay i see you think pacific islanders are better than asians sorry if im not mistaken the philippines is one of the poorest countries in asia, i mean the world

and why are you so proud of having spanish blood? does that make you feel superior or something? oh maybe cuz pure filipino blood is so inferior that you just wanna feel better about yourself by embellishing your ignoble history of 3000 years of being enslaved by the spanish?

and hello, the pacific islanders? your ancestors look like monkeys okay they look like homosapiens with messed up teeth and extraordinarily short height

well maybe it was lucky for the filipinos to have the spanish enslave them they're still ugly but not as ugly as before

KFC here sucks they sell fried chickens with rice what the hell

english with filipino accent is freaken annoying

filipinos have messed up teeth

Source:
http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=Filipinos

Sunday, September 16, 2007

jet's cookieng kinagat




ang batang mahilig mangapitbahay--si jet2! At sa bahay na ito, siya ang super star dahil syempre, instant baby sister sya sa amin ni mogs. ehehehe!

buti pa si megs may cookie moments with jet2! hmp!

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

cool.

Our visit at the Social Weather Station was really surprising and very productive. It was surrprising, well, because the place looked more of a residential building and less on an office or a library. Also, I was expecting their library to be the help-your-self, use-the-database-system, squeeze-every-keyword-you-got-in-mind type of library. But lo and behold, SILA ANG NAGSILBI SA AMIN DOON. And as Anne would put it, researching there was so easy because you get to talk to a human OPAC (the electronic card catalog we use in our library at school). There was this super efficient and helpful and soft-spoken library assistant (whose name is Marc~tinandaan ko talaga?) who made our visit productive. We just told him every information we wanted to have, and he did all the finding. ANG GALING TALAGA! Our 75pesos entrance/research fee was worth it. But wait, there's more! With the 75pesos, comes five free pages of photocopied materials. Not bad, right? But then when you exceed the quota, you'll have to pay 10pesos for each additional pages. Being the wise students that the three of us were (I was with Anne and Judy), we just copied the additional information we needed so as not to exceed five pages. HEHE!

There, I just wanted to share the experience. Super cool talaga. I guess our library at school should also hire human OPACs. HEHEHE, whatever Dez!

Oh, Shiela was also very kind to help us locate the place. Since her home is just around the vicinity, she met with after our research and helped us find our ways home. Thanks!

*****

It's now 3:30 in the morning. I just woke up 30minutes ago and I still have to write reaction papers for tomorow's LITCRIT reports. I haven't eaten dinner, and I'm munching on FITA biscuits and drinking Coke. Haay, I want a real meal but I'm so TAMD to make one. HEHE!

GOODLUCK SA 'YO! GOODLUCK SA 'KIN! GOODLUCK SA 'TING LAHAT!

GO THESISMATES!

Friday, September 7, 2007

My Philosophy [or the lack of it]

Just after some circumstances I encountered after class, I came to realize that going with the flow is not always a good thing to do. It makes you tend to neglect what you really want. When you conform to what the majority want at all times, how about the choices your heart desires?

Sad to say, there are a lot people who disregard their own choices for the sake of going with the flow, of satisfying what other people want. I'm not sure how many those people are but one thing is certain--I am one of them.

I go with the flow because I do not like arguing with others. Just for the sake of a peaceful relationship with people around me, I concede to every choice they make. But Nietzsche's philosophy made me realize that going with the flow (especially when the flow is not what you really want and not what's good for you), represses the order of nature.

I'll put into my own words what our professor discussed and I hope I do this right. Given the premises mentioned above, I think going with the flow is like ignoring a crooked flow of things. In theory, nature should correct the crooked flow. If one thinks a flow is crooked, he/she should do something about it. But by going with it, it continues and will continue to be wrong.

Even if I realized such an absurd thing, I'd still go with the flow only this time, I'd choose when to follow and when not to. Wahahaha! Labo noh?

There. Kung mali ang interpretation ko nung lesson, engot lang talaga ako. Wag kayo magpapaniwala sa mga pinagsasabi ko dito.

Monday, August 13, 2007

I'm a Lucky Bitch!

Yes, I really am lucky today. Even without any appointment, I was able to interview the coach of UST's football team, Marjo Allado. Originally, I came to school to interview a football player, Johnson Lee. Then I thought I could just ask Johnson after the interview about their coach's whereabouts so I can have an expert source.

Since Johnson was still missing in action, Madie and I headed to the field to check on the football players who were having their practice. Luckily, we stumbled upon Manong who pointed us the head coach of the football team. Ayun na! Coach Marjo was kind enough and said yes.

The interview pretty much consumed the whole side A of my microtape. Coach was really mabait and accommodating. He even told me he's also from AB. Kaya ayun, medyo palagay din siguro sya dahil we both came from one faculty.

As for my interview with Johnson, it went alright as well. But I guess I'll stick with my interview with their coach. What really struck me was Johnson's response when asked about what he felt regarding the special treatment given to the basketball team when they won the championships. He told me, "Para sa akin, masakit yun syempre. Parang nakakainggit yun. Mas maganda sana kung pantay-pantay dahil nagchampion din naman kami."

Compared with the extravagant treat [trip to HongKong] given to the basketball team, the treat given to the football team is way inexpensive--pinakain sila sa China Town.

Coach's explanation, however, was that basketball is a more celebrated sport than football. Also, both teams had different managers. They understood the situations both teams were in. What's more important, according to coach, is that his players remain humble and that their efforts are still recognized.

I just hope I was able to gather enough information to make a non-profile article. Wish me luck on this! The UAAP football games are scheduled on January, meaning, I won't be able to cover and write about them. I'm left with no other choice but to write something "newsy."

Waaah! I really hope I'd be lucky enough to make a decent article out of the interview. I really need good grades to save my life. But then, I can not depend on luck alone. Wika nga, mas mahirap pa rin talunin ang "MASWERTE NA, MAGALING PA." Plus, it would really be more fulfilling to achieve things because I did my best shot at it and not just because of pure luck.

Monday, July 16, 2007

A Lost Graduating Student [Reflection? nah]

I want to write about something but then I don't have something to write about in mind. If this is the case, then I'll have to write about writing.

I admit I'm not a good writer. I was not part of our school paper in high school. I was once forced to joined an essay writing contest but I didn't win. I am not a Varsitarian staffer. I don't have a broad vocabulary. And I still haven't mastered my grammar yet.

Why am I in JOURNALISM again?

I was too pressured the time I was filling out my college application forms. My parents were insisting that I take Nursing. But Nursing was not what I wanted to pursue that time. I thought I wanted to be a broadcaster so I chose Journalism. My second choice was to be a Mathematics teacher, just like Ma'am Mendoza, my Algebra teacher in high school that's why I chose Mathematics Major in Actuarial Science. The last option I wrote to fill the last blank in my UST application was Nursing.

Luckily, I passed all three courses. However, I was wait-listed in Nursing. Since I didn't like to take up Nursing, I told my mom it would hassle us big time to follow up such a case. Because of that lame excuse, Mama didn't bother about following up that course, so I ended up with Journalism.

I wouldn't deny I was one of those people who misconstrued Journalism as the course for people who want to be Broadcast Journalists. After a few months in my freshie years, I learned, I took up the wrong course. I should be in Communication Arts instead. I had no other choice but continue what I had began. Although Daddy wanted me to transfer to UP, I declined to do so because back then, I had a very special reason not to leave UST and Journalism. I also didn't want to burden myself and my parents for shifting to another course or to another school for that matter.

So, for the past three years, I struggled hard to survive writing and reading--two activities I'm not fond of doing. Now that I'm graduating, they are still activities I find difficult and tedious to do. But now, I'm quite acquainted with writing. By that, I mean, I'm no longer having a hard time expressing what I think in words.

Yes, I am graduating. And what I wanted back in high school quite changed. Seeing talkative and active people made me realize that broadcasting is not for me. But being a student of Ma'am Gotauco made me yearn even more to become an Algebra teacher.

I want to teach Algebra in AB. I want to be just like my three mathematics teachers--elegant, feminine, pretty, young, intelligent, and stable. Of all branches / kinds of Mathematics, Algebra is my cup of tea. I'm not really good in numbers, I only became interested with variables, constants, and exponents when Ma'am Mendoza became my teacher in 4th year HS.

Now I'm wondering if I can be what I want to be. Can I possibly be an Algebra teacher in AB even if I'm a Journalism graduate? Well, that's something to look forward to. For now, I have to deal with the pressure of proving my parents that I will not fail because I took Journalism instead of Nursing.

Mama: Deb, after ng graduation, ano naman ang trabaho mo?
Me: REPORTER. Not a broadcast reporter, but a NEWSPAPER reporter.

I was quite disappointed with my mom's remark: Parang napakawalang kwentang trabaho naman nun.

Well, Mama and Daddy have been very supportive of me but maybe she's right. Even my OJT trainer would agree to mama if he heard her. I, myself, do not believe I'll earn ample money with this profession. Then I thought, maybe I can study again and take a Masteral degree.

My Dad also agrees that I won't make it big in Journalism. Although he supports me with whatever undertaking I choose, he advised me to take up LAW after graduating.

Daddy: Alam mo anak, gusto ko talaga maging katulad ka ni ano eh--anu nga bang pangalan nun?
Me: Sino po?
Daddy: Sikat yun eh--si Elle Woods ba yun?
Me: Ah, yung sa Legally Blonde po?
Daddy: Oo, palagi ko napapanood yun dito eh.
Me: HEHE!

Yeah. Sometimes, my Dad is cute. But he has to understand I'm not an industrious student. He got the idea of me becoming a lawyer because I once told him about Djhay. If he'll come to think of it, he'll realize how great the gap between Djhay's intellect and mine. Sometimes I feel so guilty because my own father believes I'm a great student when in fact, I am not.

But then, I have to strive really hard not to fail my parents. Even at this very early point, I'm already pressured with their plans for me. They want me to work right after graduation so that I'll be of big help to my sister's schooling. While I'm working for my sister's education, Daddy, on the other hand, will work for our dream house. It' really a good plan, only it's so idealistic. I mean, how can a journalist pay for a would-be-nurse's tuition? If that would be the case, I'd apply for the position Costumer Service Representative as sideline. Haha. KIDDING!

But kidding aside, at the end of the day, the decision would still all be on me. I have to make up my mind as early as now so that by March, I'm off to being the "PANGANAY" my parents expect me to be--maaasahang tutulong sa pamilya.

Whatever decision I may arrive at, I hope I'd make it big. I want my parents to be proud of their JOURNALIST daughter.

As much as I would like to ignore the feeling that my parents have greater hopes from my sister [since she's taking up NURSING], the thought that she'll be well-paid still prevails. In fact, Mama and Daddy always mention Meagan's future abroad. I'm not jealous of Mogs. I just fear that my responsibility as the eldest daughter won't materialize because my younger sister is the one who provides much more.

Pero kahit anu pa man ang kahinatnan ko at ng kapatid ko sa hinaharap, alam kong mamahalin at susuportahan pa rin namin ang isa't-isa dahil kami ay isang PAMILYA.

Saturday, July 7, 2007

Tagged [for the first time] ;p

Instructions: Each player starts with 7 random facts/habits about themselves. People who are tagged need to write on their own blog about their seven things, as well as these rules. At the end of your blog, you need to choose 7 people to get tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave them a comment telling them that they have been tagged and to read your blog!

My 7 Random Facts/Habits

1. I rub my foot [sometimes both feet] on my sister's pillow which I call "unang baboy" before sleeping.

2. I was an asthmatic child.

3. I don't really like reading.

4. I use two straws for my beverages.

5. I stalk once in a while.

6. I really love hugs!

7. I have this bad habit of pricking my zits. tsk tsk.

Saturday, June 23, 2007

fulfilling?

I'm watching MMK right this very moment and I had the heart to help 2nd Lt. Ariel Toledo by texting MMK GIVE to 2331. For 2.50php, I'd be able to help his family with his hospital bills. I really don't know what has gotten into me. I'm not really a fan of MMK and I usually don't use my credits for things of this sort. But maybe, just maybe, I'm someone who has a kind heart. I know I didn't waste anything for that.

After three months of service, Toledo was diagnosed of having bile cancer. He graduated Magna Cum Laude and Class Valedictorian in PMA last year. I must say, without a doubt that his life story really struck me. Or perhaps, Jake Cuenca playing the role really moved me. HEHE. Biased talaga! Sorry, I crush him a bit eh! ;p

Seriously, stories of true love move me. Toledo has a girlfriend who gave up her career just to be able to take care of an ailing loved one. As a woman myself, It takes great courage to face such problem. Since Toledo already lost his parents, he is only left with his siblings and his beloved girlfriend to support him. I admire the girl's strngth. Really.

Here's the message sent by MMK to me:

Anumang pagsubok ang dumating sa buhay, hindi na mahalaga ang sugat o sakit na iniiwan nito. Dahil mas importante pa rin ang mga aral na itinuturo sa atin ng bawat karanasan.

Taos-pusong ngpapasalamat si Lt. Ariel Toledo at kami sa MMK sa iyong tulong.

Monday, June 18, 2007

Daddy's Day

Happy Father's Day sa ating mga ama! I'm sure most of you had the chance to hug your dad today. As for me, I only got to talk to him--on the phone. Unfortunately, no hugs for me; just his voice and his chuckles.

My dad left when I was in grade four. If I were to use some Mathematics, my dad has been away for ten years now. He wasn't able to witness a lot of important events in our lives: elementary graduation, high school graduation, and most probably, college graduation. Things like these really make me sad. But for daddy, he has a lot more reasons to feel alone.

I'd like this entry to be some kind of a "tribute" to my dad. I'd do this by enumerating all the things I remember about him.
  • After phone calls, he'd ask us to kiss him. Kami naman, may TSUP at MWAH sound effects palagi. Well, those things make daddy happy, why deprive him of them dba?
  • He has this mannerism wherein he distorts his face and pouts.
  • He always tells me that when my sister and I were little, he used to sip our sipon because we didn't know how to blow off mucus back then.
  • With his scooter, he used to bring me to school. Now, I think that scooter doesn't work at all but I enjoyed driving it before.
  • He used to pat our butts so we'd go to sleep right away. He calls that act "pikpek". So everytime we can't sleep, we'd tell him, "daddy, pikpik mo ako." Now it makes me wonder, is "pikpik" a tagalog term?
  • Waking up after siesta time was fun because daddy used to surprise us with merienda.
  • In Iloilo, he used to fetch my sister and i with his bike. And then, he'd treat us to the ice cream parlor near our school.
  • Since he was a seaman, he would tease us that he has another wife somewhere. I get too affected with the joke that I cry hard. Then, he'd approach me and tell me it wasn't true. The best thing was the hug he used to give me right after wiping away my tears.
  • One time, he gave me and my sister a five-peso bill. That was all he had in his wallet and since my sister and I were kids, we tore the bill in two. Share kasi kami eh, bakit ba? Unfortunately, our money was not accepted in the sari-sari store.
  • He is an avid fan of PBA. He watched games live in Araneta. My mom used to irritate him by siding with Sunkist. Dad's a fan of Alaska back then.
  • He would spank us when we don't obey his orders. At times, we thought he was scary because of his disciplining. But over-all, daddy is really kind and sweet. He loves us so much.
  • He used to teach us how to swim. Since he was good in it, he would impress us by saying, "oh, ito, one hand lang oh!" Then, he'd swim awkwardly using one hand only.
  • When he was a still a seaman, he'd bring home loads of chocolates for me and my sister. Sa sobrang dami, kahit naglalaro lang kami sa kalye, may bitbit pa kaming Cadburry bar.
  • Everytime he leaves for work, my sister and I would cry out loud and beg him not to leave.
  • He also loves pictures! When we were young, we had a lot of pictures with him in Iloilo.
  • Daddy is also a good cook, just like mama.
  • He taught me how to ride a bike.
  • We watched Free Willy [the movie with a captured whale] with Daddy. Also Pocahontas and Mulan [?].
  • He always brings pasalubong when he's from work.
  • He wears perfume. I miss his scent.
  • Daddy plays tennis well. Every morning, he used to play tennis with his friends in the court in front of the house in Marist.
  • He loves singing. When he sings and KTVs, he'd carry me and we'd dance to the tune of Delilah, My Way, or Green, Green Grass of Home.

Dance With My Father


Back when I was a child, before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high and dance with my mother and me and then
Spin me around ‘til I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure I was loved

If I could get another chance, another walk, another dance with him
I’d play a song that would never, ever end
How I’d love, love, love
To dance with my father again

When I and my mother would disagree
To get my way, I would run from her to him
He’d make me laugh just to comfort me
Then finally make me do just what my mama said
Later that night when I was asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he would be gone from me

If I could steal one final glance, one final step, one final dance with him
I’d play a song that would never, ever end
‘Cause I’d love, love, love
To dance with my father again

Sometimes I’d listen outside her door
And I’d hear how my mother cried for him
I pray for her even more than me
I pray for her even more than me
I know I’m praying for much too much

But could you send back the only man she loved
I know you don’t do it usually
But dear Lord she’s dying
To dance with my father again
Every night I fall asleep and this is all I ever dream

Tuesday, June 5, 2007

Yehey!

I'm through with every article I have to accomplish and as early as now, I can say My OJT at Woman Today Asia (WTA) is finally over. On Tuesday, Madie and I will have our evaluation forms signed by Ms. Rhia. Yipee!

Admittedly, I'm really not familiar with the said magazine. Sir Delon even blurted out a violent reaction when he learned we were affiliated with it. He gave out a "Yuck" in front of Madie. But I really have to say, I liked my work at the magazine compared with my work at Star.

With WTA, I have a fun, youthful, cool trainee. Ms. Rhia totally rocks. She’s not the scary type. Plus, she’s open to suggestions and is not grumpy. In fact, she willingly approved my Multiply.com suggestion. She also texts us in a very warm manner.

In my experience with WTA, the most exciting was my Multiply article. The article has a part wherein I have to enumerate some local celebrities with Multiply accounts. I had fun searching for websites of artists. Ahahaha!

And then, there’s KC Concepcion’s account. I am totally in awe after seeing the 281 replies in her single entry. Just imagine the overwhelming number of visitors of her site. Who wouldn’t want the popularity? But if everyone becomes popular, nobody would be popular. Besides, there are a lot of disadvantages of being popular din naman. One of them is that you lose the privacy you want.

But then, masaya pa rin yata maging sikat. Wat u think?

Sunday, June 3, 2007

Pancit Lucban

Sine Totoo is airing in GMA and Ivan Mayrina is featuring different regional versions of our favorite PANCIT. Nakakagutom!

Anyways, I'm still working on my Multiply feature for Woman Today Asia. It will be my last article for my OJT and hopefully, it gets published. I've been working on this since Friday night. At this very moment, I've come up with an article 1,120 characters short of the required 3, 000 characters [with spaces]. Yeah, the article's too short for it to take me this long. Maybe it's just my PROCRASTINATION which delays the progress.

Dez wouldn't be Dez without the laziness and the "mamaya na" attitude. I know these characteristics of mine don't make a professional journalist. I just hope I overcome these attitudes so as to prepare myself for the profession I'm about to enter as I finish studying. Haha. Motherhood statements! PFT. Goodluck na lang sa akin.

The truth, I decided to write this entry kasi tinatamad pako magisip ng isusulat. Wahahaha! Sana mabigyan ko ng hustisya ang Multiply sa gagawin kong article. Wahahaha!

Sunday, May 27, 2007

Emma Roberts is Nancy Drew

Rating:★★★★
Category:Other
Get a Clue with Nancy Drew
By Debra Jane Bozar and Madelaine Joy Garcia

Solving mysteries and driving fast cars are typical stuffs for small town girl Nancy Drew. But for Emma Roberts, star of the new Nancy Drew movie, being in the lead role is a big time adventure in her “dream project”.

Emma admits she has never read the book series though she’s a self-proclaimed Harry Potter girl. “It’s really great. I’m rather nervous because so many generations have read the book and I have big shoes to fill. But I’m really excited and it’s going to be a lot of fun,” said the 16-year-old star in an interview.

The Sleuth goes to Hollywood--
Director Andrew Fleming opted not to modernize the all-time favorite teen detective. “But if we did, what’s the point? Why call her Nancy Drew?” Instead, he made Nancy’s surrounding rougher, ruder, and more dangerous by setting the plot in a bigger city-Hollywood!

“It's not based on any of the books — it's a new premise where Nancy Drew moves to Los Angeles and lives in an old movie star's house. It's filled with all sorts of adventures,” said the Aquamarine star. In her latest adventure, Nancy is out to unravel the mystery behind the death of movie star Dehlia Draycott.

The mermaid’s “unfabulous” undercover--
Emma’s first on-screen appearance was alongside Johnny Depp in the 2001 rated-R movie Blow. Since then, she has starred in other movies, Aquamarine being the latest, while doing her own TV series Unfabulous, that made her a household name, in Nickelodeon. She also released her first album last year, Unfabulous And More: Emma Roberts. “I sing and everything. So, we thought it would be cool to put out a soundtrack because everyone said how much they loved the songs. I’ve always like singing,” she said. The newly-hailed Female Star of Tomorrow in the recent Showest Award proudly shares that she did few of her own stunts as Nancy Drew: I get in a car chase and then I have to outrun a car. So that’s fun.

The Pretty Woman’s Niece--
Emma thinks her Aunt Julia’s Monalisa smile is the most striking common feature they have, while being good bakers comes next. “We make peanut butter cookies and chocolate chip scones.” She comes from a family of stars. Besides Academy Award-winner Julia Roberts, her father, Eric Roberts is also a movie star. But she doesn’t want to be forever stuck with the names of her dad and aunt. “I think it is really cool to be compared to her because she’s an amazing actress, but I do kind of want to make a name for myself and accomplish something on my own.”

Busy Bee--
Emma is now working on a comedy film to be shown in 2008 titled Wild Child. Her hit TV series is already running its second season. She’s also expected to appear in Camp Couture, Bras and Broomsticks, and Rodeo Gal. She has signed a contract with Dooney & Bourke, as their new spokesmodel. She is also designing her own Dooney & Bourke handbag, named after her.

Coming Soon--
Prior to the movie’s release on June 15, the director Flemming and producer Jerry Weintraub have verified a sequel with Emma still playing the role.

Saturday, May 26, 2007

Aliw Bukas!

We already submitted our evaluation sheets at the Philippine Star office today. On Monday, our certificates are ready for pick-up. But my OJT at Woman Today Asia is still on-going. In fact, Madie and I will cover Nickelodeon's 2007 Kid's Choice Awards tomorrow at the Aliw Theater.

Each tickets given to us by Ms. Rhia admits two. Since we were given two tickets, it would mean four people can come to the party. Arene agreed to join us tomorrow but according to Madie, her decision isn't final yet. She might feel lazy anytime and decide not to come. Unfortunately, Grace wouldn't be able to come with us tomorrow too. She has her own appointment tomorrow din kasi.

I really don't know what to expect tomorrow but I hope this event becomes the grandest experience in my OJT. Excited nako! I wish to see celebrities and eat good food! Utang na loob naman. Of the three presscons/forums I've attended, egg sandwich na ang pinakaBONGGA kong nakain. Pambihira. Loser! Wahahaha.

Naku! Here I am again, naeexcite to the max. Tapos ang kadalasang nangyayari, madidisappoint lang ako pagdating ko sa mismong event. Sana naman this Nickelodeon thing won't fail me. Sna makita ko si Sam Concepcion. wahahahaha!

We'll bring our tape recorders and digi cams tomorrow! Hope to see some interesting people! ;p

*****

Nakakatawa yung esmyuskee chorva sa PBB. kumusta naman ang karera ng snails?! wahahaha. pasenxa na, jologs ako eh ;p

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Faith

Last Monday, while my mom, my two aunts and I were on our way home from a seminar in Makati, Auntie Emmy questioned the Catholic's practice of praying in front of images and crucifixes. She insists that one of the Ten Commandments states that we shall not have other gods besides HIM. My mom immediately answered while my aunt was in the middle of her litany making their conversation very long. The whole taxi ride was basically almost about that. It was annoying, believe me.

Auntie Emmy is Born Again while Mama is Catholic. There's no way one of them will win the debate. The bottom line is that they have different faiths and that there's no point in questioning each other's beliefs. Nakakairita lang yung ingay nila sa taxi eh. Pareho pa silang ayaw magpatalo at magconcede. If I remember it right, the constitution states that we should respect the diverse religions practiced in the country. So what's the point of arguing?

Well I guess that's how people stand for what they believe in. No matter how baseless, senseless, unreasonable, and annoying their arguments are, they still fight for their faith, be it right or wrong.

I believe everyone of us has fought for that belief. I once fought for what i believed would make me happy. I believed hard. I had strong faith in what i felt, in what i thought was destined for me. But then some changes took place. Now, I have to forget about everything I believed in.

How hard is it? Here's my lame description of it: "right now, forgetting about that belief of mine is like forgetting that i exist. Hindi madali. Hindi pala talaga sapat kapag ikaw na lang ang naniniwala sa bagay na yun."

Oh well, papel. Siguro oras na nga talaga para magpatalo. Maybe it's about time I concede to what others believe in--that i should forget.

CHEERS!
HUUUUGGS everyone!

Sunday, May 20, 2007

next!

Now that I'm done with the showbiz article mentioned in my previous entry, the next thing to accomplish is the questionnaire for our thesis. If you're wondering why we are required to do something regarding our theses during the summer vacation, don't worry, I'm wondering as well. Harharhar. Joke lang.

Speaking of summer, shoots! Ang init sa Pilipinas. No wonder ang bilis pumasok sa ulo ng mga tao yung init. Haay. How I wish I'm in a another country that's cooler, better and problem-free. If there's such a place, I'll be able to leave all the negative vibes, people, thoughts, experiences, and feelings I have here. I definitely won't miss those kind of things. But how can I leave this tropical when all my valuable personal belongings [family, friends & happy memories] would be left behind? I wouldn't want to reside somewhere all alone and it's quite impossible to bring all of them along.

Another thing, leaving the country for the sake of running away from my predicaments is plain cowardice. Why not stay and face your troubles? They will sprout like mushrooms regardless of your location anyway. Plus, I'd still remain a coward despite a change of location. So whats the point of moving? Wahaha! How lowly is that? Okay, okay. Enough of the harsh perceptions of yourself, Dez. Be positive! ;p

Lastly, there's still no place like home! You might find this weird, but I miss my mom, my sister and our bed whenever I'm sleeping over at a friend's place. For me, that's enough proof that home is where the heart is. Ahahaha! Hello Dez? Is there anything more cheesy than that?! ;p

Yeah, and before I forget, our country has a lot of wonderful places to visit. I've seen some virgin spots a while ago in GMA 7's Sine Totoo. There's the Cagayan River, Walang Langit falls, Bolinao Giant Clams Sanctuary, and APO island. Oh, I'd love to go to APO island in Negros Oriental. It was Howie Severino who checked out the place. He was able to explore some coral reef and even dived from a mountain of rocks into the deep sea. The view from where he dived was magnificent. The corals as seen from above, were like human brain painted on a blue canvass. Hehe! Kahit pangit yung description ko of the corals, I must say, that's something I want to see myself and experience someday. San ka pa dba? Only in the Philippines!

Oh how I'd love to travel! If only I have all the riches in the world to support my capriciousness, I'll even bring all of you with me! Nyahaha. Dream on!

Friday, May 18, 2007

Thankful

I have an article for Woman Today Asia that is due tomorrow and I haven't started on it yet. I have to write about the TOP TEN MOST PROMISING YOUNG STARS of today. In my list are: Marky Cielo, Gerald Anderson, Rayver Cruz, JC de Vera, Enchong Dee, Sam Concepcion, Joem Pascual, Matt Evans, Jake Cuenca, and Mikee Lee. Yeah, laugh at me for the kaBADUYan but honestly, i don't even know some of those on my list. That's the first reason why I'm having a hard time doing the article. The second is that I'm not inclined to this kind of topic. The third, is that maybe I'm a big time loser.


Yes, I am a loser in many ways. This is what I always think -- I'm no good in this field; I'm better off somewhere else; I'm doomed to be left behind by people I treasure; I'm bound for failure; I'm never gonna step up a level higher from mediocrity; and my life and I are equally crappy. But thinking those things doesn't make me feel any good. I believe, a good feeling is something that has no negative side effects. This is what I always want to feel -- fulfilled, appreciated, loved, accomplished, smart, uncrappy,  and meaningful. But I think those positive feelings are not achievable by just a lonesome effort. For me, the people around you could be of great help. Good thing i have a few beside me.

No matter how crappy I feel, I have this re-found friend who reminds me of how special each of us are, if not for everybody, at least for some caring people. This friend cheers me up whenever I feel depressed. This friend reacts on the way I lowly perceive myself and it feels good to be advised to regain the confidence, the pride, and the self-esteem you once lost, because after all, everybody needs the right amount of those three things in their lives.

Having this friend made me feel appreciated. Now, I feel better because there's one person, excluding my parents, who doesn't care about my weight, my figure, my facial features, my social status, my dumbness, my insecurities, and my imperfections. I'm glad to have a friend who is willing to listen and give advices without expecting anything in return.

It always feels good to be appreciated. It also feels great to have someone who listens intently to your stories and remembers every detail of it, someone who pays attention to you, and someone who helps you become a happier person. The feeling is far more pleasing than having someone criticize the way you look, the way you move, and the way you live your life. Thanks! I'm glad we're friends.

I hope everyone feels appreciated. HUUUUUUGSS!

Life is just a matter of perspective. I'm hoping to finally see that perfect view I've always longed to stare at.

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

one down, three to go.

Madie was here today. We did our colab article for Woman Today Asia due on Monday. It's a good thing we were able to accomplish this article since we have three more on our list.

At around 10, I woke up. Immediately, I called madie to check if she's really coming. She said she's ready to leave their house and we agreed that I'll meet her somewhere near Concepcion Market. In between that phone call and Madie's cue text message that she was already near, I was able to clean the PC area, sweep the floor, and take a bath. Nyahaha! Good thing madie's place is an hour drive away from here. =)

I cooked ginisang corned beef for us. Nyahaha. That's the only thing I know I can cook well. I think I'll have to marry a chef someday. By that, my ignorance in the kitchen would be compensated. ;p While I was cooking, Madie was researching for Nancy Drew facts.

After lunch, at around one, we started our article. It was quite a struggle to begin the story at first but we made it through. Nyahaha. At around four, we were already done. We sent it to our trainer right away.

We had snacks while watching The Notebook. Unfortunately, we weren't able to finish the movie since Madie already had to leave. I accompanied her to the sakayan and that was it.

*I'm crossing my fingers that this one's gonna be published. PLEASE!

Kabataan: PAGASA ng Bayan

I exercised my right to vote and it feels great! It made me feel less indifferent about my own country. And the indelible ink, it really doesn't fade that easily. Haha! Pasensya na. FIRST TIME KO EH! ;p

It took me less than 30 minutes to find my precinct number, write down my choice of candidates, and have my pointer finger stained by the indelible ink. Thanks to the NAMFREL people, it wasn't that hard for me to look for my name even if I still don't have my voter's ID.

I honestly wished somebody would hand me money in exchange of a single vote. Too bad, there weren't any people of those kind there. The only things handed to me were sample ballots. Bawal na nga yun eh, dba? PFT!

The 12 senatorial slots in my ballot weren't filled. I only voted eight candidates. I also didn't fill the slots for city councilor due to the fact that I don't know the candidates. In fact, I only wrote down two familiar names.

Right now, I'm tuned in to GMA's Eleksyon 2007 coverage. Pangilinan's children are on TV. They are so adorable. hehe! The latest partial/unofficial count on 24 Oras says Noynoy Aquino is on the lead.

*****

I didn't go to work today. I asked my trainer via SMS if there's any assignment for me today but he told me to just write any election-related articles in our place. Having read his reply, I didn't bother replying. I also didn't make any article since in the public school where i voted, nothing news worthy took place.

Sunday, May 13, 2007

Kawawa

Haay. Matindi talaga marahil ang pagkamuhi sa akin ng aking mentor. Hindi niya ako tinitext kung saan ako magkocover sa elections samantalang sila madie, sinabihan na ng trainer nila na sa DepEd sila ni Ms. Marichu inassign. Paano naman ako nito? Nakakainis. Ang sama-sama niya. Mukhang ayaw talaga niya maging makabuluhan ang OJT ko. Siguro hindi niya ako pinagkakatiwalaang magcover dahil sa sa tingin niya, masagwa ang aking pagsusulat. Haay.

Ang sakit ng kaliwang braso ko. Kumikirot yung mga muscles ko dahil sa itinurok sa akin ng kapatid kong injection. Sa akin kasi siya nagpractice. Maya-maya, skin test naman ang gagawin. May injection na namang involved. Hindi malakas ang loob ko pagdating sa mga bagay na ito ngunit dahil sa paki-usap sa akin ng aking kapatid at ina, wala naman akong magagawa eh. Para naman to sa pag-aaral ni Meagan. Haayy. Ang sakit!

Nakakairita 'to. Tumahimik ka na. Epal! Hmp!

Friday, May 11, 2007

Unnecessary

After our meeting at Woman Today Asia, Madie and I went straight to RP to eat at Red Ribbon. Madie and I were craving for cakes. Too bad, my slice wasn't a chocolate mousse but the choco mallow cake was really good naman. While eating, Manang Arene arrived. The ever bad influence Manang Arene [hahaha! bleh] persuaded us to play bowling. I said yes after a pathetic attempt to convince them to pay for me. Haha!

We transferred to Sta. Lucia after lunch. Since we were just wearing slip-ons, we needed to buy socks for hygiene's sake. We also had to rent bowling shoes to be able to play. Surprisingly, I wore size 4 bowling shoes! Wuhoo!

I must say, I really enjoyed that time with my LRT mates. Although I didn't score well, I really had fun throwing that heavy bowling thing. In fact, Madie and I played three games, two of which, I lost. Nyahaha!

After bowling, we shot some hoops [naks!] at World of Fun. Hehe. We always play basketball whenever we go arcading. It was tiring. I think I'll experience pain in my right arm tonight because of the activities I did today. Hehe!

What's more fun was I didn't have to worry about work since my trainer texted me that he won't come to the press office today. WUHOO! ;p

Thursday, May 10, 2007

THREE DAYS!

[TODAY]
I surprisingly woke up at around 8am. I connected to the Net to re-read Sir Jere’s instructions regarding the THESIS revisions. I also did some checking of my friendster, multiply and LJ accounts. After surfing the net, I dozed off again. I woke up before 12 and saw my phone in silent mode, blinking. My aunt called to tell me to meet her in the salon. She needed company and no one’s available so I said yes. Besides, I felt I badly need a haircut.

In the salon, the kuya/ate noticed how dry my hair was. He/she convinced me to have my hair hot oiled. And so, I said yes. Good thing my generous aunt paid for it. I’m saving for mom’s cake on mother’s day and for my other unnecessary cravings. Hehe!

That Alfaparf fluid used in my hair was just fragrant. That’s all. Hmp! After the salon experience, I didn’t feel better. I didn’t think the hot oil helped, neither did the haircut. I’m missing my long hair! Waaaaaahh! But the depressing feeling didn’t stop me from going to work.

I arrived at the press office late—an hour and a half late. I hadn’t had the chance to grab a bite for lunch but I wasn’t hungry that time naman. I sat beside JP, an intern of Business Mirror, also from UST. I tried to converse with him and he was kind enough to reply to my non-sense queries. After a while, Babsie and Jackie arrived. The four of us just talked until sir Jess called me.

He asked me to do an article about the rift between a Nueva Ecija Representative and a former Jaen Mayor. When I was half-way done, he said he’ll do the article himself so; I turned off the PC without saving my supposed-to-be article. After a while, he called me again. He told me to continue working on my article, print it out, and compare my work to his in tomorrow’s issue.

“Yes, I’ll compare a professional’s work with an amateur’s and won’t be surprised to find out you’re better.” Tsk ;c

[+] Nagbrownout sa office! Nakakatuwa, it was a more happy experience compared to a scary interaction with your boss.

[TUESDAY]
Before leaving home for work, the skies poured cats and dogs. Everyone thought it was a blessing, especially for me because I had a very good excuse not to go to work. I texted my trainer and told him I can no longer leave our house since the streets were already flooded. He replied with a very long “K”.

That same day, we celebrated uncle bob’s birthday. Our relatives gathered in Marist to enjoy some merienda. The food was great, as usual. And the bonding session was fun. Later that day, my aunt played ballroom music and so, everyone danced, including two-year-old baby cousin, Wella.

[MONDAY]
I haven't been updating lately. A lot of things have transpired in a short span of time but before I recall everything. I just want to say, I'VE ALREADY WATCHED SPIDERMAN 3! Hahaha. I know it's nothing significant. I just feel happy having seen it.

I watched the movie with Madie and Djhay. After work, Madie and I met with Djhay at Gateway and bought tickets right away. We caught the 5:30 movie and managed to secure ourselves not-so-cool seats. The last few vacant seats were the ones at the front row so we agreed to grab the third row seats before they disappear in thin air. ;p

Before the movie started, we got to have a glimpse at some movies worth anticipating: Harry Potter and Pirates of the Caribbean.

The movie ended at around 8 p.m. It was really a lengthy film that we found some boring moments in it. But overall, it was good and interesting, full of action and has superb effects. OK, I'm not that great a movie reviewer so I better leave that job to the PROs! :)

Madie had to go home ASAP. Djhay and I were supposed to have dinner but there wasn't enough space at the food court so we decided to go home na rin. I arrived home before 9, starving.

[+] This day, I realized how poor I am in commuting. The FX I rode went past through the place where I’m supposed to take off. And the jeepney bound for the House took another route, which was unfamiliar to me. I kind of panicked that time but I still managed to reach the press office safe and sound.

[+] Saw that "Please confirm change in relationship" message and it still pierces my heart the same way it did when I first read it.

Friday, May 4, 2007

WEIRD!

I already saw my name on paper today. May tag line kami ni Jade in the STAR's page A26. It wasn't as fulfilling as what I've expected. As I read the article, I realized that I never wrote anything in relation to it. Now I'm wondering kung bakit tatlo kami [with our trainer] sa tag line.

Sana next time, yung pinageffortan ko yung mapublish. In that way, it would be very fulfilling especially kapag alam mong ikaw talaga yung gumawa nun story.

Haaayy.

Last Wednesday, my trainer advised me to shift to another course. I understand what he meant. Masyado daw kasi masikip ang market opportunity sa journalism unlike NURSING na sobrang in demand. Eh graduating na ako eh. Magshishift pa ba ako?

Haaayy.

Friday, February 16, 2007

No big deal.


Backdated entry: (feb 12. 2007)

Matutulog na dapat ako kaya lang hindi ako dinadalaw ng antok. Dahil dyan, hindi ko tuloy napigilan ang sarili kong mag-isip ng mga bagay-bagay habang nakahiga sa kama at naghihintay na makatulog. Hindi ko na rin napigilang malungkot dahil sa mga tumatakbo sa utak ko. Ang dami kong inakala. I thought it was just a phase pero hindi naman pala. Mejo nahirapan ako icontain lahat ng sad thoughts kaya kahit na alas dos y medya na ng umaga, bumangon pa rin ako para ilabas ang mga nararamdaman ko. Kahit gaano pa kabaduy o kahit gaano pa ka-BITTER ang mga saloobin ko, ano naman? Meron pa bang may pakialam? Corny man at kacheapan, naisip ko lang kasi, mahirap pala talaga ang magmahal. Kung sabagay, meron pa bang madaling gawin sa mundong ibabaw? Mga opinion ko lang naman ito.

Mahirap magmahal ng MATALINO. Kailangan palagi kang may nakahandang dahilan para maintindihan ka nya. Dapat may dahilan kung bakit mo sya mahal, kung bakit ka humihingi ng tawad, o kung bakit ka ganyan.

Pero mahirap din magmahal ng TANGA. Kasi kahit gaano mo ipilit na ipaintindi at isaksak sa kokote nya ang mga bagay-bagay, siguradong hindi ka rin nya maiintindihan kasi nga, tanga eh.

Mahirap magmahal ng INSENSITIVE. Kahit iparamdam mo na handa kang ibuwis ang lahat para sa kanya, hindi rin nya mapapansin. Pangalawa, hindi nya alam na sobrang nasasaktan ka na dahil sa mga ginagawa nya.

Pero mahirap din magmahal ng SENSITIVE. Kaunting kibot mo lang eh magiinarte na. Kahit walang dapat ikabahala, sobrang hysterical na. Kahit na simpleng mga bagay lang, pinapalaki pa ang problema.

Mahirap magmahal ng TAHIMIK. Hindi mo malalaman kung ano ang gusto nyang mangyari. Hindi sya magsasabi kung ano ang tunay na nararamdaman nya. Higit sa lahat, hindi mo maririnig galing sa kanya kung gaano na sya nasasaktan.

Pero mahirap din magmahal ng MADALDAL. Maririnig mo lahat-lahat sa kanya, maski mga bagay na hindi na dapat marinig ay sinasabi pa rin nya. Hindi maiiwasang masabihan ka ng mga masasakit na salita na makakapagbaba sa self-esteem mo.

Mahirap magmahal ng SELOSA. Nakakasakal yun dahil hindi ka malaya gumalaw at makisalamuha sa ibang tao, lalo na kasama ang mga babae mong kaibigan. Kaunting closeness lang eh pagseselosan na kaagad at bibigyan ng malisya.

Pero mahirap din magmahal ng HINDI SELOSO. Kapag nagmahal ka ng hindi seloso, hindi nya alam yung pakiramdam ng pagseselos kaya napakadali lang sa kanayng sabihin sa iyong, “wag ka na magselos.” Hindi mo rin mararamdaman yung kilig kapag alam mong nagseselos sya.

Mahirap magmahal ng MAPRIDE. Kahit na alam na nyang mali sya, hirap na hirap pa rin mag-apologize. Mahirap para sa kanya ang magpakumbaba at kung magpapakumbaba man, isusumbat at isusumbat pa rin sa iyo.

Mahirap din magmahal ng WALANG PRIDE. Hindi ko alam kung bakit. Wahaha.

Mahirap magmahal ng FLIRT kasi hindi mo masisiguradong ikaw lang yung finiflirt nya. Malay mo, pati ibang tao nageenjoy sa kanya, dba?

Pero mahirap din magmahal ng HINDI FLIRT. Wala sigurong thrill yung ganun. Pero at least, alam mong hindi nanglalandi ng ibang tao, dba?

Mahirap magmahal ng MALIBOG. Bukod sa nakakailang, nakakafrustrate malaman na sa ibang tao nya nisatisfy ang tawag ng laman dahil hindi mo maibigay sa kanya yung gusto nya.

Pero mahirap din magmahal ng HINDI MALIBOG. Aba, nakakatigang daw yung ganun eh. Wahahaha! Tama ba ang iniisip ko?

Mahirap magmahal ng BATA. Para kang may inaalagaang anak. Dito na rin papasok ang mga salitang “childish” at “immature” dahil nga isip bata yung kinakasama mo. Maiinis ka lang palagi dahil hindi magtutugma yung mga gusto nyo sa buhay.

Pero mahirap din magmahal ng MATANDA. Bukod sa mahirap sabayan ang trip, masyado ring malalim kung mag-isip. Makaluma at old fashioned pa kaya lalong mahirap pakisamahan.

Mahirap magmahal ng MAHILIG UMAASA. Mahirap kasi imeet ang expectations ng ganung tao. Marami syang inaasahang mga bagay na mahirap ibigay at gawin. Kadalasan, nakakapressure ibigay ang mga demands at expectations nya.

Pero mahirap din magmahal ng MAHILIG MAGPAASA. Hindi mo kasi alam kung ano ang dapat isipin. Yung mga inaakala mong ipinapakita nya, hindi pala dapat bigyan ng ibang kahulugan dahil hindi naman pala kayo pareho ng iniisip. Mabibigo ka lang din.

Alam ko marami pang pwedeng idagdag sa mga nabanggit ko pero iisa lang naman ang tinutumbok ng lahat ng iyan, na talagang mahirap nga talaga ang magmahal.

Pero ang pinakamahirap sa lahat ay ang katotohanang isang yakap at halik lang ay handa ka na ulit na tanggapin lahat ng paghihirap para sa minamahal mo.

PAMBIHIRA dba? Pero ganun lang talaga ang pagmamahal, kailangan mo munang masaktan bago sumaya. At sa bawat ngiti at tawa, meron ding mga luha at paghihirap.

Nasa tao lang naman yan eh. Dahil na rin sa mga personal na naranasan ko, naniniwala na akong love is not purely about destiny. It is also about the choices we make. Sabi nga sa quote na pinadala sa akin ni shaine dati:

“Scientists found out that romantic love involves chemical changes in the brain that last 12-18 months. After that, you and your partner are on your own. Love can absolutely last for a lifetime as desired to be maintained. MEANING, IT’S BOTH YOUR CHOICE.”

BOTTOM LINE:
It will last if you know how to commit.

Gayun pa man, naniniwala rin akong EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON. Kaya kung ano man ang mga choices na pinagpilian namin, alam kong may rason kami sa pagpili ng mga desisyong iyon, at may rason kung bakit kailangan mangyari sa amin kung anuman ang nagyrai. Maaaring may ibang mas magandang mangyayari dahil sa mga desisyon na iyon. Maaaring may ibang destiny na nakalaan para sa bawat isa sa amin.

Ayan, ok na ako.

TIME TO MOVE ON NA NGA TALAGA.
TIME TO STOP CRYING.
TIME TO FORGET ABOUT "US"
TIME TO FORGET ABOUT THE USED TO BES
TIME TO FORGET YOU
TIME FOR POSITIVE CHANGES
AND, TIME TO SLEEP. hehe!

so what?!

February 14 was very celebrated that every restaurant in Marquinton was filled with couples, cliques, and families. I was there, not with a significant other [because i obviously don't have one], not with my friends, but with my mom and my sister.

My valentine's Day started very early. Surprising as it is, i woke up at around 7 a.m., which is very unusual for a "tulog-mantika" like me. That day, I decided to start reading the assigned articles for poldy. After reading five pages of the first article, i stopped and pondered. Then I thought, it's time for me to have a better cellphone in terms of function. So, i immediately texted my very irritating and user-friendly yet trusty best friend to accompany me to riverbanks to have my phone sold and to buy a better phone. By better, i mean, a phone that i can use not for luxury's sake but for necessity's. And so, i ended up buying a Nokia 6610 since Raymond insisted that i buy that model. And yeah, i'm quite satisfied not considering that fact that i really really want an Nseries phone or a v3x. nyahaha!

It was a good thing Raymond didn't plan anything special for his girlfriend. At least, I had company at riverbanks and for Vday as well. It was only yesterday that i found out how addicted to KFC's gravy Raymond is. "Binabahog" talaga nya yung gravy sa kanina nya. Tinalo naman ang kaadikan ko. nyahaha. I once again enjoyed riding his motorcycle though I scold him at times for speeding up. It was fun riding a motorcycle. I get to see the road well, feel the wind on my face, and avoid traffic. Dakilang singitero kasi si Raymond eh. wahaha!

He went home at around 3 and took my green, fake lacoste pouch. Now, our digicam doesn't have a pouch. I'm using my mom's jumbo purse and it looks ridiculous. haha!

At around 7, mama and i headed to marquinton to have a celebration of valentine's day and of meagan's passing of the battery exam. yes!

MY SISTER PASSED THE BATTERY EXAM! and i'm so proud of her! i'm a proud sister! wuhoooooo! ;p

I'm really very happy for her. She made our parents very proud and happy. But on her part, passing the battery exam wasn't that exciting at all and i understand how she feels. Meagan has problems with making friends. This college, it's an achievement for her to have two very close friends in school--Rinzy and Marianne. Unfortunately, both Rinzy and Marianne didn't make it to pass and they are recommended to take another course. This would mean that on her third year in colege, mogs will be left with no close friends. I feel sorry for my sister because i definitely know how it feels to be alone, and it's not fun. I just hope she'll make new friends and I hope her studies won't be that affected.

So yun nga, we were there for two reasons. Kaya naman we made the most out of the night. We ate dimsum at a Chinese Resto! Yehey! What's disappointing was the crew's service. Due to many customers, we were hardly accommodated well. Our orders were delayed and the rice was served to us just after we finished the viands halfway. I didn't quite enjoy the dinner. But being with my two girls made my vday AYOS!

i'll make sure my next vday will be spectacular. [haha, cge dez, ipilit mo!] ;p

i love mozilla firefox. may spelling check xa kapag nagtatype ako ng journal entries. ehehe.

Wednesday, February 7, 2007

Modem, MALAYA, Motorista, Magulo

All the while I thought I'm so great because i was able to reformat our PC all by myself. Hindi pala. I'm having problems with my internet connection. Maybe it's the modem which has a problem. That problem, I can't figure out.

Since Sunday, my internet connection has been terrible. Connected na ako sa net but Y!messenger can't log in. The same applies with my web browsers. Ayaw ng firefox at ie magopen ng kahit anong website. Ang weird talaga.

Miracle na lang yung nangyari today. Nakapagopen na rin ako sa wakas ng websites na gusto ko puntahan. Unfortunately, my Y!messenger is still not working. Bakit ganun? Naginstall naman na ako ng driver para sa modem. Parang hindi narerecognize nung messenger na connected nako. nakakainis. Pati yung AVG update hindi ko magawa kasi "there's a problem with your internet connection" DAW! badtrip.

WHY IS LIFE SO HARD ON ME? AM I NOT SPECIAL IN MY OWN WAYS? [bozar, 2k7]
HUHUHUHU ;c

haha, mga kadramahan eh noh? Anyway, ang dami ko gusto sabihin pero hindi ko alam kung panu. Mejo outdated na rin kasi karamihan ng mga kwento ko. The latest so far is the tiring application for internship a while ago. Though the activity exhausted me so much, i'm still grateful we were able to pass seven applications in one day. not bad.

Mr. Rivera of MALAYA: Why Malaya? [he was asking us why we chose to apply in Malaya]
ME: [blank]

God, that was traumatic. And intimidating. And humiliating. I can't believe we were so proud to affiliate ourselves with UST and manage toscrew up in just one UNEXPECTED question. HAAAYY. pasahan pa lang ng application yan, what more kung actual interview and work na? huhuhu. Arene tried to utter some words but Sir rivera didn't understand her and just responded with a, "huh?!" Good thing anne was able to think of an answer, "Sinusubok po kasi namin apply-an lahat."

Grabe, parang pang Miss Universe yung tanong. I really didn't know how to answer it but personally, I heard that Malaya is a good newspaper. Sir Aldaba even brought to class his everyday broadsheets and one of those is Malaya. Ayun. I also learned din na some of our seniors had their internship there kaya ayun, interesting lang.

I hate reckless drivers. Kanina, while anne, arene, madie and i were crossing the streets of dapitan, merong SUV na ang kapal ng mukhang hindi magslow down samantalang kitang-kita naman nyang school zone at maraming tumatawid. Sa lahat ng mga sasakyan na nandun, sya lang ang hindi huminto at hindi man lang binagalan yung takbo. hindi man lang nga bumusina para iwarn yung mga tao na ayaw nya magpatawid eh. ang kapal talaga ng mukha. sa sobrang inis ko, sinigawan ko sila. eh tamang tamang bukas yung mga bintana. sabi ko: EXCUSE ME PO!! the next thing i knew, huminto yung sasakyan at may sinisigaw yung driver. I didn't hear what he was saying. The most stupid thing he did? He pointed a dirty finger at me. GAGO sya. Bwisit. Kumulo talaga dugo ko sa kanya.

Sometimes, people tend to be so inconsiderate, conceited, selfish and insensitive. Simpleng diskurso na lang sa kalye, di pa magawa ng tama. Kabulukan talaga ng ugali oo. Kung nagkataong bumaba yung driver at inaway ako, isusumbong ko talaga sya sa mga pulis. Akala nya siguro may K na sya gumanun ganun dahi itim ang SUV nya. HMP! may araw din sya.

Kapag ako nagkaroon ng kotse, hindi ko rin sya patatawirin tulad ng ginawa nya sa amin. HMP tlga! ang sama sama sama sama niya. Bahala na si God magparusa sa kanya.


Kung gaano kagulo ang trapiko sa bansa, ganun din kagulo ang buhay ko. HARHAR! magandang transition dba? hhaayy. i can't explain how weird things are. Ang weird ko na nga rin ngayon eh. Simpleng weird things lang ang nagpapaiyak sa akin. Wahaha. Wala lang, lately kasi, things don't fall in their proper places for me. Palagi na lang palpak, may aberya, nakakainis, nakakalungkot, nakakaiyak, mahirap, nakakabaliw, nakakalito at nakakalugmok. Tulad nga ng lagi kong dinadrama kay madelaine, "GUSTO KO LANG NAMAN SUMAYA, IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK?"

wahahaha. BOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!

Monday, January 22, 2007

MORE HUGS PLEASE!!

It’s funny how my cousin reacts violently about Gretchen’s issues shown on S-Files. It’s kind of ridiculous to hear her opinions and grievances regarding the case since first of all, she’s neither close to Gretchen, nor to Bong Revilla for that matter; and second, she doesn’t have a say on it since she’s just a regular viewer on TV. For God’s sake! She’s cursing Gretchen as if she knows the person well. I don’t care about Gretchen; I just hate hearing her crazy remarks.

Buti pa sya, yung lang ang pinoproblema sa buhay. While she’s continuously ranting about the stupid issue, I, on the other hand, have been silently contemplating on certain things which are bothering me lately. Well, I know I shouldn’t really think about these matters. There are other more important things to attend to [i.e. photojourn project; PolDy recitation; thesis deadline] than this unexplainable feeling of mine. But then, when my emotions are involved, I can’t seem to concentrate.

First of all, the results of the prelim exams make me nervous. I can say that I did study well but then, the tests are very difficult. After every exam, I’ll end up frustrated for not knowing the answers to some items. I’ll get even more frustrated when I learn that my answers are not the same with my other classmates. These frustrations, add to that the pressure of meeting deadlines and preparing for recitations, make me don’t want to go to school anymore. All of those make me feel helpless and hopeless. I’m not really aiming to get high grades. As long as I pass, that will be more than wonderful.

Second, I felt sad after talking to my dad. It’s quite unusual to feel bad after a conversation with him, but a while ago was different. It’s been a habit of him to ask me about someone. I really didn’t know what to tell him although I was already expecting he’d ask. I just remained quiet for a while and changed the topic. After talking to daddy, I went straight to our room, lied on my stomach and buried my face on my pillow. I shed a few drops of tears, and then, I felt okay. I immediately resumed to watching PRINCESS HOURS.

Watching PRINCESS HOURS makes me feel happy. Actually, natapos ko na sya kanina lang. Ang saya saya! Even the thought of buying its 2-disc package for only a hundred pesos made me jump with glee. I had to buy my own copy of it since Arene’s copy was already dysfunctional due of its many scratches. I just felt I had to buy it with urgency because recently, only these kinds of series on DVD make me feel light, excited and happy. My life has been a bit gloomy the past days but just seeing the characters of these Koreanovelas give me hope that someday, I would live my life happily ever after just like theirs; that someday, I will find the man who will complete me; and that someday, all my dreams and aspirations will come true. I know these surreal ideas will lead me nowhere. I’m just hopeful that someday, I’ll be completely happy and contented. I believe nothing’s wrong with that.

How can I sound as gloomy as this song playing called Eyes on Me? Hehe. But I’m very much okay. I know I can handle things on my own. I’ll get through this because I’m a strong person. Wuhoo! GO DEZ!!Ü

Thursday, January 18, 2007

PLEASE!

HUG ME.

i feel so empty and stressed out. haha.

i saw on 24 Oras that in korea, students are giving out free hugs to help "unstress" people. They hold cards saying, "FREE HUG!" Studies show that touch therapy helps a lot in removing stress.

ayun.

Thursday, January 4, 2007

Original Lumpia Shainghai - Cheese Flavor

I told myself that i should resume reading Sheila Coronel's article after surfing the net that's why i decided to write a very long new year's entry to delay my reading. Hehe!

So here's a review of the latest significant events i experienced before the year ended.

DECEMBER 23
We met Lourdes who migrated to Canada some 5 years ago. It was realy fun. We ate lots of food and took lots of pictures. I already posted the pictures in my Multiply account, just see them. hehe! Too bad, the planned sleep over at maj's place did not materialize.

Christmas EVE
The Yuletide Season that was is the most boring holiday my family has ever had. Mama just got home from Iloilo last December 24. All we had for noche buena was menudo, a Goldilocks cake, and Coke lite since Mama was so tired and so broke to prepare more food. My sister was so bored that she decided to leave the house and have fun somewhere else. I insisted to come with her that's why we ended up hearing Mass. The ceremony was very unique. It gave me goosebumps. Before the Mass started, all the lights were turned off. Then, the priest started talking.

"Ganito ang ating buhay kapag wala ang Panginoon."


What the priest said was so true. With out Him in our lives, we are just disabled and panicking in the dark. Then, the priest continued his preaching by saying that "Christmas is the Lord's foolishness." The Lord was so foolish that he sent his only son for people like us--criminals, ingrates, murderers, rapists, opportunists, sinners. The cermon really enlightened me. I just hope it enlighted my sister, who was texting the whole time, as well. The Mass ended joyfully as the priest led the singing of Ang pasko ay Sumapit with a very cheerful tone.

We arrived home before 12. Mama and our cousin, Ate marlyn were already asleep. Meagan and I had no other choice but to force ourselves to enjoy the noche buena without our mom. It was quite fun. The two of us exchanged gifts for one another. We also took photos and videos of ourselves, of the food, and of the gifts we received.

When Meagan retired to bed, I was left alone, watching past videos of special occassions in our lives. I got to watch the video of my simple yet crazy 18th birthday. Somehow, it made my Christmas happy. The part when Shaine showed her armpit to the camera made me laugh out loud alone. hehe! I was still up when Mama and ate Marlyn woke up. At aroung 5 a.m., Ate Marlyn left. I slept at around 7 a.m. and woke up after an hour.

Christmas DAY
The three of us, [mama, mogs and i] gathered in the living room to watch more videos. That time, we also gave mama our present. Fortunately, she liked what we gave her. hehe! A few hours later, our relatives came to visit.

In the afternoon, Mama heard mass. We were invited by Ate Gade to watch an MMFF film since she had no one to celebrate christmas with. While mogs and i were preparing ourselves, another set of relatives came. I was rattled. Andami kasi nila at ubos na ang pagkain. hehe! Good thing, i found the biscocho brought by mama. We managed to entertain the guests. When mama arrived, We took off na rin.

We planned to watch Mano Po 5 but Sta. Lucia wasn't showing the film on that day so we decided to watch Kasal, Kasali, Kasalo instead. We learned that KKK was shown in the old cinemas of the mall, which were infested by SUROTs, so we decided to transfer to RP na lang. When we got there, Ate Gade bought tickets for KKK. Then we ate at Chef d Angelo and bought some grocery items since the movie we chose was scheduled to start in two hours pa.

The movie was good. Ryan and Judy Ann's tandem worked well, though Judy Ann's acting is more commendable. It was a very funny movie. Ate Gade wanted to watch it since she thought she'll relate well with the story line. She'll get married na rin kasi in April. Ayun, we were already home by 11:30 p.m.

DECEMBER 27
I woke up late that's why shaine, mak and tope waited for me for 30 minutes or so. The four of us were the only ones who are willing to pursue with the registration despite the RUSH and the HASSLE. As for me, i really had to register since we were required by Sir Tayao to do so.

I met them at the Church at around 8:30 a.m. Due to the facts that i woke up at 8, i found out that i have my period, and shaine was demanding me not to take a shower, i DID NOT take a bath. haha! Yuck!

So we were at our city's COMELEC at around 9. The queue was already very long when we arrived. We immediately passed the requirements. Unfortunately, I still had to photocopy one of my documents. As a result, my papers were placed at the bottom of the pile. When my companions were already filling out their application forms, i was still waiting for my name to be called. Good thing, my friends waited for me to fill out my form so we can pass our forms all together.

After having our forms signed, we decided to just return the next day for the BIOMETRICS(?). The line for the next process was really really really very LONG.

The time we left the building, we were all starving. Since i was having cramps, we decided to eat lunch in the nearest Jollibee branch so i can take a pain killer. After lunch, we met Romar. For some reason, his plan of having his Xray didn't push through. :)

Then, we headed to Marquinton. Their original plan was to watch KKK but since i already saw the movie, our group was divided. Maj and Shaine watched KKK while romar, tope and i watched Mano po 5.

It was a typical story of love and family conflicts. Chinese tradition hindered angel locsin and Richard gutierrez's relationship. Then, there was Christian Bautista who was a famouse Asian artist arranged to marry angel. But as the typical romantic movie that it was, it's main characters, angel and richard, naturally ended up together making christian give up angel to the man she truly loves. Typical talaga, and it wasn't as "nakakatawa" as KKK. Only Lorna Tolentino was funny enough to make audience laugh.

After the movie, maj had to leave. She missed the all our videoke-ing and the Time Zone-ing fun. I really had fun with shaine, romar, and tope. We even won mini cadburry chocolates from that candies-dispenser machine. We also exchanged the tickets we won for pencils and clay toys.

We ended the day with a meal a KFC branch near our place. After that, we called it a day.

DECEMBER 28
It was a very looong day. We arrived at 7:30 in the morning and finished at around 4:30 in the afternoon. The queue for biometrics was already long. The last person in line was number 165. Kumusta naman yun dba?! We tried to entertain ourselves by gossipping, eating bread pan and pillows, playing games, and answering trivias. that day, as shaine puts it, "super bonded na talaga kaming apat."

When lunch time came, pulubi na kami that's why we had to borrow money from maj. Then, after lunch, we were already called to enter the office. Inside the office, the line was till very long. It takes one person around 3 minutes to undergo the picture taking process, and only one computer was serving each person. That explains our very long wait. tsk!

The long wait was really fine. The problem was, NASINGITAN KAMI NG ISANG MATANDANG LALAKI! See how unfair the world could be? It took us half a day waiting for our names to be called. Si manong, his name wasn't called kasi hindi sya pumila! Ay badtrip talaga yung ganun. kung alam lang namin na walang listahan sa loob ng office, sana inaway namin xa at pinaalis. we were expecting kasi na may list din yung kumukuha nung pictures kaya confident kami na papalabasin si manong at papapilahin. kaso, walang listahan sa loob kaya nakasingit xa at hindi na naghirap pumila! badtrip tlga. unfair!

After that last process, we were already registered voters! yehey! we went home right after.

DECEMBER 29
Our HS Class' GRAND REUNION. i wasn't there. ;c

NEW YEAR!
We didn't cook everything prepared in the afternoon. We realized we're just three and we can't eat everything in just one night. We just cooked spaghetti, chicken [sweet], and salad that night. The barbecue, burger patties, etc. followed the next days.

Raymond came in the afternoon. He just dropped by to give me his promised Chocolates. Yey! He left immediately since he had errands to run.

We just stayed home that evening. We were too scared of the fire crackers. We just enjoyed watching TV and eating togther. When the clock struck 12, Mama got hold of her kaldero lids and banged them as if they were cymbals. Of course, i jumped for the hope of getting taller.

A few hours after midnight, i entertained myself by playing with the video cam. While meagan was talking with a HS classmate over the fone, i was discovering the other features of the camera. it was quite interesting din naman. :)

My New Year's Resolution
be HAPPIER!

Thanks!
Last year was a good year for me. A good year wouldn't be possible without people who brought joy to my life that's why in this entry, i'd like to thank each one of them.

First in my list is God. Without him, i wouldn't have a life to live, parents to love, a sister to tease, predicaments to overcome, food to eat, resources to abuse, friends to have fun with, teachers who instill lessons in my mind, oxygen to breathe, water to drink, rights to enjoy, music to listen to, dreams to fulfill, talents and skills to hone, tears to shed, movies to see, blessings to share, sins to repent, mistakes to learn from, fears to overcome, a future to look forward to, and many more.

I also want to thank daddy for working hard for us, for enduring being alone just to earn money, for sending us to reputable schools, for providing us with our needs and wants, for giving me advices, for supporting me with the field i've chosen, for making me feel loved and important, for making us disciplined individuals, and for raising us as good persons. I love you Daddy!

To Mama, thanks for taking care of us, for scolding us everytime we commit mistakes, for cooking food for us, for doing the laundry for us, for teaching us what you've learned from your life, for loving us unconditionally, for instilling in us good manners, for making us disciplined individuals, for sacrificing a lot for us, and for raising us. I love you Mama!

To my sister, thanks for chatting with me at night, for buying me ice cream whenever i'm depressed, for bringing home pasalubong for me, for making me feel loved, for quarreling with me, for being a good companion, for being a friend to me, for keeping my secrets, for your generosity, and for everything else. I love you Mogs!

To my HS friends, thanks for still listening to my problems, for making me feel that you are willing to fight for me, for making me feel special, for making me feel that i'm not alone, for making me feel that you want to be by my side, for being there whenever i need all of you, for making every gathering a blast, for sharing picture moments with me, for all the times of reminiscing, for all the happy times, for the secrets you've shared to me, for all the games we played, for cheering me up when i'm down, for giving me advices about life and love. thank you guys! mwah!

To my college friends, thank you for keeping me company, for eating lunch and dinner with me, for sharing picture moments with me, for accompanying me to the CR, for waiting for me to arrive everytime i come late, for all the corny jokes we've shared, for all the amazing races we've had, for making my college life fun, for listening to my tedious stories, for listening to my problems, for comforting me when i'm sad, and for being good friends to me. Maraming salamat! mwah!

To my bestfriends, thanks for giving me chocolates, for believing in me and my kakayahan, for trusting me with your secrets, for being there for me, for being trust worthy, for boosting my confidence, for making me believe in my self, for loving me, for being loyal to me, for the friendship, for the good times, for the care and concern, for everything. i love you! mwah! ;p

To the man i love, belat! ;p Ahaha. Salamat sa lahat! Thanks sa nakakaasar mong pangaasar, for the free pedicab rides, for the bonding moments, for the cuddles and kilig moments, for the good times, for the bad times, for the love and care you've shown me, for standing by me, for understanding me, for making me feel happy, for making me realize my mistakes, for making me feel comfortable by your side, for everything, salamat! ahaha. ang chorva naman! ;p

Sa mga taong nasaktan ako nung nakaraang taon, thanks for making me realize that i'm a strong person, for making me a better person, for making me learn how to forget and forgive, and for making me a stronger person. I may have forgiven you at this point in time and I hope, the people i've hurt have forgiven me too.

May this year be equally great, if not better than last year. This year, I will strive to be happier! yehey!

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wala nako masabi. nakakalungkot isipin na kailangan ko na bumalik sa pagbabasa ;c