Sunday, December 26, 2010

Sino ang Kadiri?

Dear Juliet,

Let me start this blog entry with a story I heard of through a college professor. This is about a famous actress who got really, really rich because her partner is a business tycoon. So one day, while she was inside an elevator with her bodyguards, a matron entered. This old woman reeked of tobacco. Irritated, the famous actress ordered her bodyguards: "Get this woman out of this elevator. Kadiri, ang baho!" Apparently, the famous actress didn't know who she was antagonizing. And so, she went pale when the old lady, with much infuriation, shouted to her own bodyguards: "Get this woman out of MY building!"

So what's my point of mentioning the story? Let me quote Jaclyn Jose's line in the movie, Naglalayag: "Ang tunay na mayaman, hindi nila pinahahalatang mayaman sila. Di tulad ng mga biglang yaman." And let me add: Di tulad ng mga social climbers sa tabi-tabi riyan. LoL!

I really understand the discomfort of the famous actress. I understand the girly attitude of pandidiri, but to speak crudely like that? That is just unacceptable and matapobre. Good thing KARMA got her right away. Boo yah, famous actress, you bitch!

Okay, now let me tell you about another crude comment I heard from somewhere. I understand how inconvenient it is to commute. What with the bad traffic in every corner of the Philippines? Every commuter like me sure will kill just to avoid the traffic jams--one way is to ride the LRT or MRT. I also understand the situation in public rail transits in this country. It's really physically harassing to ride in one since passengers are literally packed like sardines. But to say-- "Kadiri naman sumakay sa MRT kasi mga walang pinag-aralan ang mga sumasakay dun." --is just unacceptable, matapobre, and SISSY [considering that the speaker is a guy].

I don't know. I am a commuter myself, but I haven't really made such pang-aalipusta to fellow commuters.  I whine, I rant, I complain but I don't bad mouth people that way. What for? To establish my "high" socio-economic status? Ttssss! I guess that's the problem with the rich--it's difficult for them to adjust to the masses' way of living. But on second thought, maybe this speaker isn't really that rich, because if he were, he could've bought himself a car already to avoid such commuting hassles. Right? And where did the girly attitude of pandidiri come from? FUNNY!

So what's my point of mentioning the second story? There are actually a lot of lessons to learn, but I have three simple things: 

(1) Let me quote Jaclyn Jose's line in the movie, Naglalayag: "Ang tunay na mayaman, hindi nila pinahahalatang mayaman sila. Di tulad ng mga biglang yaman." And let me add: Di tulad ng mga social climbers sa tabi-tabi riyan. LoL!

(2) Do not make sissy comments if you're a guy. Because if you do, your grand macho image will become tainted and strangers like me [plus a whole lot of other people] will talk about you and laugh at you behind your back. Walk the talk, man!

(3) KARMA happens. So be good. Hehe :)

LoL! Akala nyo profound lessons, noh?

Hoping, waiting, believing. 
★ Happidezz

Saturday, December 25, 2010


Dear Juliet,

It's Christmas and I have nothing to do. I'm not complaining, just saying. I decided to blog because I want to share my Mama's kabaduyan. Haha!

ME: Mama, friends na ba kayo ni Daddy sa Facebook?
MAMA: Ayaw ko ng friends.
ME: Ha? Bakit?
MAMA: Kasi gusto ko love.
ME: *pukes*

Haha. Parents! Merry Christmas everyone!

Hoping, waiting, believing. 
★ Happidezz

Monday, December 20, 2010

Never been happier

Dear Juliet,

Ano yung SMP? Lagi ko kasi yan nakikita sa Facebook eh. Bakit ba malungkot ang mga taong napapabilang sa SMP? I searched the web and found this answer:

SMP: Syota Mo Pangit.

LoL! Kaya pala sila sad. I now understand.

Hoping, waiting, believing. 
★ Happidezz

Wednesday, December 15, 2010


Dear Juliet,

Hey, the title's a possible word, so don't laugh unless you're perfect, you're a linguist, and you're grammatically flawless. "Grammar Nazi" your face! uLOL!  LOL ;p Okay. Serious na. Here are random thoughts.

San Marino is better, at least for me. The problem with it though is that the rice texture is not consistent. Sometimes, the rice is too soft; other times, the rice is too dry--parang tigang. LOL. Shet! Apat na araw na akong kumakain ng rice. I feel so bloated ;c
My passport arrived today. As always, I look like crap in my IDs. Imagine how haggard-looking I am in my picture ;c But hey, I can now plan out of the country trips. Wuhoo!
I'm making the most out of my new camera. I won it during our Christmas Party. I'm lucky in raffles now :) Yehey! It's not really what I wanted for Christmas [I wanted a Nikon P100 ;p]. But hey, this is a blessing. I might as well love it with all my heart. LOL ;p
A smiling carton ^_^
I found this lying around in the office and noticed the "face" on it. Hehe!
It's ten days before Christmas and 17 days before 2011. Ang bilis. Tic, tic, tic. That's the sound of 2010 running out. My 13th month pay is running out fast, too. Hay. I guess this [the wristwatch] is the only gift I'll have for myself this Christmas. I sooo love the STARS! :)

Hoping, waiting, believing. 
★ Happidezz

Sunday, December 5, 2010

Take a hike, man!

Dear Juliet,

Some men just don't get hints. This morning, I decided to ride a bus to Megamall so that my travel would be less tiring, considering it'll just one ride from home. As usual, I sat somewhere in the front part of the bus, beside the window. The ride made me sleepy so, I dozed for a while. When I woke, I noticed that the guy beside me was sort of secretly taking my photo using his phone camera. Irritated, I faced the window.

He tried to start a conversation with me. That's really the weird part. Most people find me mataray, thus refraining from approaching me, but this one's malakas ang loob at makapal ang mukha. He began asking stuffs about our neighborhood. Apparently, he knows some people from our place. I didn't want to be rude so I answered his questions but at the same time, I made sure to show my disinterest of the conversation. When he kept quiet, I was relieved. But then he asked, "Pwede ko ba mahingi ang number mo?" I politely declined: "Naku, 'wag na po kuya."

Those times, I was still cool about the whole situation. I was thinking that if I decline his request, he'll get the signal that I really am NOT interested and stop talking to me. But no! He started to freak me out by saying things like, Bakit? May magagalit ba? Nakikipagkaibigan lang naman ako eh. Wala naman akong masamang intensyon sa'yo. Parang awa mo na, number lang naman ang hinihingi ko eh. Sige na nga, ano na lang ang pangalan mo, miss?

Grabe, he pestered me from Quezon Avenue all the way to Ortigas. I was ignoring him, but he was so persistent, so I gave out rude remarks like, "Makulit ka rin kuya, noh?! Eh ayaw ko nga po!

Akala nya siguro madadaan ako sa kakulitan. Sorry sya, I'm a hard nut to crack. Matigas 'toNatigil lang sya dahil bababa na sya. I didn't understand his desperation. He even said while poking me with his cellphone, "Sige na naman miss, malapit na ako bumaba eh. Sige na nga, okay lang. Bababa na ako. Ingat ka na lang ha."


That was one scary and weird and annoying experience. I was alert the whole time, thinking of the right self-defense moves if ever he decides to harass me and hurt me. What is wrong with that guy?! AYAW KO NGA EH. AMP! WALANG PILITAN! AMP!

Hoping, waiting, believing. 
★ Happidezz

Friday, December 3, 2010

Morticia! ♥

Dear Juliet,

Look at what I found on the Internet! *drum rolls*

Morticia Addams!

I so love the name Morticia, I'm planning to give it to my daughter someday. Haha!

There's this campaign going on over Facebook which aims for "an invasion of memories." To condemn violence against children, people are asked to change their profile pictures to a cartoon from their childhood until December 6. At first, I chose Courage the Cowardly Dog. But then I remembered Morticia, how I love her figure-hugging gown, and how I enjoyed the Addams Family when I was a kid. And so, tadaaaah! Here are the SEXEHY Morticia plus the Addams Family Theme Song. Iloveeet!

We visited 2 branches of NOH School for Crippled Children today. This institution helps kids with physical and mental disabilities get quality education. Ah. The kids were really inspiring. They live with positivity despite their plight. One even recited a poem which said, "Be patient and forgiving because life is never fair."

Hoping, waiting, believing. 
★ Happidezz

Thursday, December 2, 2010

DEZember ♥

Dear Juliet,

I am channeling positive vibes so that this month becomes a happy month for me. So far, my first day of December didn't disappoint.

Mother dear cooked chicken cordon bleu for my baon. I found myself eating it even before our break time. Lol. I swear, mama's cooking is the shiznit! It felt like eating KFC's double down [or better]. Awyeah ;p Haha!

And then after I was done eating my baon, Ms. Letty's birthday celebration began. Palabok. Lumpiang ubod. Dinuguan. Kare-kare. Foodgasmic! Good thing, I was still able to stick with my no-rice diet. Wuhoo!

BOREDOM = Crazy doodles on my notebook
School was okay. There were classes despite the rally. My first class was really interesting--gendered speech; the societal positions of the sexes. My second class, though, well, let the picture speak of the mood I had for three grueling hours. I used to do this back in college, during our Marriage and Family class.

After school, I headed to SM Fairview to meet Mama and Meagan. While waiting for them, I saw this starry wristwatch. I immediately fell in love with it. At walang kaabog-abog ko syang binili maski wala sya sa plano. Hay. There went a part of my Christmas bonus. RAWR! Anyways, happy naman :)

And then we had this family bonding over dinner in Tong Yang. All you can eat! Sira na naman ang diet, pero no rice pa rin naman ako. Hehe! It's really fulfilling to see family members happy because of a simple dinner you paid for. Haha. Nothing beats times spent with family! Sulit na sulit ang lahat :)

Hoping, waiting, believing. 
★ Happidezz

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Hola, Cambodia; Hello, Ontario! :)

Dear Juliet,

Haha. The title doesn't make sense. LoL! Anyways. It's the last day of November. Rawr! We're 4 weeks away from 2011! Pretty crazy, huh? Tic, tic, tic. That's the sound of 2010 running out.

I wanted to talk about what I want to accomplish within the short time left of my 2010. But judging from my laziness, I bet I won't be able to accomplish anything din naman. LOL. Sad to say, I lost in my 25-day Hip-Hop Abs Challenge. *sob* I still haven't been eating rice, though. That's the only part I get to succeed in. Thank God my tummy still hasn't bulged out. Hayz.

Okay. Still, let me map out my plans. Four weeks. Twelve things. Good luck!
  1. Carry on with the December travel tradition. Madelaine!! :)
  2. Go out with cousins: amusement park first, liquor party afterward.
  3. Go somewhere with sissie and mama. Family bonding!
  4. Send daddy a package.
  5. Save, save, save!
  6. Try to run or at least jog in UP.
  7. Don't eat. Don't eat a lot. Yung sakto lang, okay? Rawr!
  8. Christmas shopping. Rawr. Good luck! 
  9. Catch some awesome movies during the holidays! 
  10. Christmas parties with friendssss! ♥
  11. Do something charitable. 
  12. Expect less. Aim high. Shoot low. Haha.
Ang sabaw ng utak ko. Usong-uso ang buletted thoughts. Haha. Must be because 'tis the season to be jolly. Fa la la la la... La la la la!!! LOL.
    Hoping, waiting, believing.
    ★ Happidezz

    Sunday, November 28, 2010

    Out of cohesive devices

    Dear Juliet,

    I badly want to write something that makes sense. I want to write about school, friends, and my fun weekend. However, my mind can't produce anything coherent at the moment. So here, please bear with my bulleted thoughts.
    • I can say this semester is gonna be less intimidating, less demanding, and less draining. However this one problematic course makes me think I'm not getting the most out of my investment. It's just too bad because the course is interesting. The professor, however, is always late. Like my thoughts, her discussions are oh so directionless. Her past students even give her awful reviews. It wasn't that hard to see what these bad reviews meant after two meetings with her. Sigh. Just when I have decided to be serious about school, the professor I get is not quite as serious as I am with regard the subject. I should've gotten the terror prof of last semester instead. At least I'm sure I'd learn a lot from her.
    • I renewed my passport yesterday and I was applicant number 2224. The long wait wasn't really grueling. Good thing, I brought a book with me. During times when people were no longer fun to observe, I turn to my book. And when things are getting boring between the lovers in the book, I go back to observing people. It was really interesting. Some people are just too friendly that they don't mind meddling with what his/her seatmate is doing. They ask too many questions and share uninteresting facts about themselves. LOL. There are some, however, who are just like me--introverts. They carry on with their activities silently, not bothering the one seated right next to them. I think I like those kind of people better. Hehe.
    • It was also interesting that love might actually happen in such queues. The guy and the girl from a few seats away actually exchanged numbers. In a span of a few hours, they managed to crack jokes and to flirt with each other. I wonder if they'll end up together. I think they'll make a good couple.
    • My passport picture looks like crap. Haha. Oh well, that has become the trend with my ID pictures.
    • I went out with good friends [plus some new ones] and tried out this new place in ParaƱaque. We were celebrating Shelly's birthday and she wanted to check out Resorts World Manila. It was an awesome place, filled elites and foreigners [and some jologs like us, LOL]. We had dinner in an Italian Restaurant called Parmigiano. A celebrity was actually in the same restaurant with us. We got to take stolen shots of her. Tweety de Leon is so pretty!

      • We tried our luck at the Casino, but unfortunately, the slot machine gods didn't favor us. Haha. It was a fun experience though. There were also foreign performers who did amazing dancing. There were contortionists too! Ang galing nila. 
      • I won't forget that ass of a foreigner who hit jackpot for his five-of-a-kind combination at the poker slot machine. Since the machine was playing the jackpot music, people kind of gathered around him to see and admire the big event. The jackass discontinued playing and somehow showed his disgusto of the attention. The Filipino crowd went, "Ang yabang naman nitong gagong to. Mahold-up ka sana paglabas mo! *Insert expletives*"
          • We proceeded to Shelly's place for some libations. Lol. If I weren't too sleepy and tired, I could have drank a lot more. But the booze we had was enough to get us tipsy. Nakakatuwa si Madelaine, nangyayakap kapag lasing. LOL. I really enjoyed that part when we shared stuffs before sleeping. Funny revelations and total girl bonding! :) Happy birthday, Shelly! Thanks for the treat! :)
            Hoping, waiting, believing. 
            ★ Happidezz

            Saturday, November 27, 2010

            Dear Juliet,

            Windstruck made me cry tonight.

            Hoping, waiting, believing. 
            ★ Happidezz

            Monday, November 22, 2010

            Episode 01

            Dear Juliet,

            Please allow me to air one rant. This day simply turned into a gloomy one, just like that. I cannot understand how at one point, the energy and the giddy in me earlier in the morning was sucked by an unknown happiness thief. The dark clouds and the pouring rain made the day even sadder.

            Do you experience these episodes too? When all of a sudden, without a clear reason, you get under the weather. Nothing can cheer you up, not even your favorite song or your favorite chocolate or your favorite person. Focusing on work can't even make you forget the sadness, the emptiness. 

            This is one emotion/feeling I hate the most. I know there is nothing wrong with me. I wasn't even thinking of anything that can upset me. But for some weird reasons, stupid emptiness and stubborn sadness get the best in me. RAWR!

            The good thing about episodes, though, is that they have endings naman. I ended this drama episode of mine by forcing myself to exercise. After Hiphop Abs, I ate crab and corn soup for dinner and then I felt better. This yummy yema from Pampanga also made me smile. I'm now writing this entry in an OK mood. Hayz. Lord, sana isang episode lang 'to. Ayaw ko na po madagdagan. Nakakasira po ng bait eh. LOL.

            Hoping, waiting, believing. 
            ★ Happidezz

            Saturday, November 20, 2010


            Dear Juliet,

            Don't you just love it when people notice how blooming you are? Or how strangers would take a good look of you when you pass right in front of them? It's pretty flattering, right? But do you know what feels better than that? It's having people in your life who commend you for being beautiful not only on the outside, but also inside. My past two days have been great because of these people--friends who paint smiles on my face, friends who make the crazy inside me break loose, friends who make me blush by cracking overly green jokes, friends who make me look pretty in pictures, friends who appreciate me for being just plain ME, friends who are equally beautiful inside and out.

            College loves
            Yesterday, we had this hearty send-off dinner for Clarabelle who's migrating to Canada soon. It was really fun to be able to spend time with them that way. 

            After a very filling dinner at Cajun, I was able to convince them to drink my favorite cocktail at Gumbo. And so as soon as we got settled on our couch, I ordered four glasses of "pagmamahal" for us. Sadly, Madie and Clara didn't enjoy the drink. They found LOVE too bitter to the taste. [Note: The cocktail is named "I Love You." LOL!] 

            We took lots of pictures, trying hard to avoid the infamous Japan-Japan pose. I really enjoyed this part of the night, I must say. I had tons of fun posing with my head dress at Gumbo, inventing poses which were rather unflattering than sexy, exerting my all for jump shots, and tumbling for the camera. It was a goofy, fun night indeed!

            My favorite girls in the world--HALLU!
            Tonight is yet another fun and memorable night. I personally requested / pleaded / begged for this dinner date to push through. I did all the pangongonsensya and pagmamakaawa just so I'd be able to see my high school friends. Luckily, most of them came! They must really love me so much ;p

            In the middle of our chikahan, this one revelation shocked some of us and almost made us cry. But the night went on and ended with a blast.

            We HS friends aren't really camera whores, so we contented ourselves with a sumptuous dinner. [Sisig and sinigang, baby!] On the side are juicy news, cheesy sharing of love thingamajigs, and crazy laughters due to jokes and stories from our "guru." We proceeded to have some dose of caffeine for ourselves. I got to buy a tumbler for myself too. Yippee! [Oh, God! This day is a total splurge considering I also impulsively bought myself a book earlier in school. Yikes.]

            So there. It's really great to have friends who have positive effects on you. I'm just so thankful these guys are a part of my life. They've been there for me through thick and thin, heaven and hell. When you have friends like these, the world becomes a happier, more beautiful place.

            Hoping, waiting, believing.
            ★ Happidezz

            Wednesday, November 17, 2010

            Internal Monologue

            You're one thing I really, really can't give up at the moment. I need you. You are the key to make my future a better place to be in. But please, you have to work with me. You have to make it really easy for me to love you. Let's do this together, okay?

            **Just my thoughts about school. RAWR!
            **Positivity. Positivity. Positivity.
            **Motivation. Motivation. Motivation.

            Hoping, waiting, believing. 
            ★ Happidezz

            Sunday, November 14, 2010

            What's your happy thought?

            Dear Juliet,

            Even before Dexter and Gossip Girl and Glee, I've been really a fan of One Tree Hill. The latest episode of the series has this line delivered by Julian, which really struck a chord in my now-healthy heart.

            Happiness is a mood and it's a condition, not a destination. It's like being tired or hungry. It's not permanent. It comes and goes and that's okay. And I feel like if people thought of it that way, they'd find happiness a lot more often.
            [~Julian of OTH♥]

            Julian is right. Happiness is just like being tired and hungry. You feel it only once in a while. It passes in a blink of an eye and is never permanent. Notice how we're not happy every single day? That's because happiness is relative and sadly, seasonal too, if I may say.

            This topic is so apt, considering my blog's URL is "happidezz." It's a play on the word happiness and my nickname Dez. I've always thought of myself as a happy person until some recent experiences. But in a span of a few months, I can say I've finally pulled through. Like happiness and hunger, misery is temporary too, right? So allow me to tell you what made me realize today that I'm in a happy state. Don't expect anything grandiose, for these are just petty things. You know me, I'm easy :)

            1. The fact that people actually stop by this blog to read updates about my life. It's just surprising that my blog has now reached more than 2000 views already. [Believe me, I'm not bragging these 2000 views. It is only 0.1% of Chico Garcia's blog views. Most of the views might even probably be accounted to my narcissism. LOL!] 

            It's also overwhelming that according to Blogger's stats, people from around the world happen to come across my entries. There are visitors from the US, Singapore, Qatar, Canada, France, Italy, Sweden, and China.

            And do you know what's the most shocking of all? Brace yourself, okay? The most shocking of all is the fact that when you search "nagpapatulo ng isperma sa tubig" in Google, my blog will be one of the hits. Wow. How interesting, huh?! Well, that's because of an entry about Ronaldo Tinio's Poem, Sa Poetry. LOL!

            2. People around me has always been supportive of me. Of course, first in line are my family. Mama has been very understanding of my grumpy mood. Meagan has become a good buddy. Daddy, as always, has been a source of strength.

            And then there are friends who give me a pat on the back for doing such a great job with my life. There are people whose comforting words bring out the confidence in me. There are people who express their admiration of my strength. And people who keep me and my sanity in one piece. 

            Today, I found happiness from an exchange of short messages with one of those people~a friend named Maj. These times make me really thank God for giving them to me.

            3. Food. I hate to say this, but I've been really eating a lot lately. I guess I'm really happy now--my appetite is back to normal. Yikes! No matter how diligent I am in doing my Hiphop Abs everyday, I guess I'll really gain a lotta weight. With all the calories I'm taking in? Arrrgghh! I'll say hello to being fat again in no time =c

            Anyways, yeah. Despite the sad reality that food will make me fat, I can't help myself but eat. Food and eating make me happy. Why should I restrict myself from feeling happy, diba? I guess I'll just think it this way: If happiness passes, then my cravings [which are mainly due to the happiness I derive from eating] shall pass too. Woot!

            4. December is nearing! Wohoo! Soon, it'll be Christmas and I'm so excited! I always find the Yuletide season a happy season. [That's why I mentioned earlier that happiness is seasonal. LOL.] 

            I like the idea of spending it with my family, eating the humble "handa" we have on our table, waiting for gift-giving time, and seeing the smile on my family's faces as they open my gifts to them.

            5. My excitement to reach my destination. I don't really know what to expect, but one thing is for sure--On the day I reach my destination, when I find my perfect match, I'll have everything I deserve in life and most of my days will be filled with happiness =)

            Hoping, waiting, believing.
            ★ Happidezz

            Saturday, November 13, 2010


            Dear Juliet,

            These are the reasons why I hate SMARTBRO:
            1. The slow connection at home makes me want to hang out in BK with my sister. BK is wi-fi heaven. We get to download tons of movies and applications there! ♥
            2. When in BK, we'll have to spend so that we won't appear pooritas in the eyes of the madlang peeps. We have to eat, of course!
            3. Burgers and fries and sodas equate to tons of calories. Eating them often makes one FAT.
            4. I eat them often. Therefore, I am getting FAT =(
            5. That's why I hate Smartbro.
            6. BOW.
            The sole reason why I love BK:
            1. Bonding with sister dear ♥

            Hoping, waiting, believing. 
            ★ Happidezz

            Wednesday, November 10, 2010


            Dear Juliet,

            This is the second time I'm watching Princess Hours this year. It's my all-time favorite Korean series! And this is my favorite scene.

            Hugs from the back ♥ ♥ ♥

            My most favorite scene, though, is that part when they realized they were already in love and torridly kissed. Heehee ♥ Patawarin ang mushiness. Walang mapagsidlan eh. LOL ;p

            Hoping, waiting, believing.
            ★ Happidezz

            I almost surrendered.

            The 2011 BDJ Power Planner has this page called "Habit Tracker" which, as the name suggests, is dedicated to forming habits. The goal is to learn to religiously do an activity in a span of 21 days and to continue doing it even after the 21-day duration. Upon achieving the goal, a reward awaits.

            Inspired by this, I decided to start forming certain habits, more specifically, start doing self-improvement activities. I still have two months for 2010 which equate to two challenges!

            And now, the 25-day challenge for November:
            I'll reward myself with an iPod touch 4th gen or a new cellphone IF I manage to maintain my no-rice diet and my Hip-hop Abs exercise regimen in 25 consecutive days. Yup, I decided to make it 25 days, with 4 allowable "days of neglect." LOL. I'm only on day two and God, I almost surrendered.

            I arrived home tired. I was really, really tempted to sleep first before proceeding to dance with Shaun T. However, I thought, Baka mapasarap ang tulog ko at di na magising. And so, determined to complete this challenge with flying colors [LOL], I changed to my exercise clothes [better known as pambahay, worn out clothes. LOL] and played the Hiphop Abs CD. 

            Can I just say? HALIMAW KA, Shaun T!
            I did the Hips, Buns, and  Thighs exercise of Volume 2 for 16 minutes, neglecting the part where they did the sit-ups thingy. Then, I played the Fat Burning Cardio Part 2 of Volume 3. As I saw the time allotted for that particular exercise, I thought, Kaya ko yan, ako pa! 43+ minutes lang eh!

            OMG. After 25 minutes, I gave up. Wala nang energy! But that didn't really mean that I surrendered kasi all in all, I had 41 minutes of exercise. Eh wala namang nakaspecify na number of minutes of exercise sa challenge di ba? LOL. Dinaya ko pa talaga ang sarili ko. Hahahay!  Pero seriously, good enough na yung 30 minutes a day. =)

             RAWR!! I can do this! Flat abs, I'm gonna getcha! Buti na lang I managed not to eat rice. Chicken curry pa naman yung ulam namin tonight. RAWR!!!

            Hoping, waiting, believing.

            Monday, November 8, 2010

            2011 Belle de Jour Power Planner

            Dear Juliet,

            Haha. I'm just so stoked! This morning, I received a call from the logistics company that's going to deliver my 2011 BDJ Planner. So after work, I canceled my plans of getting a facial and immediately headed home.

            From our gate, I saw a package wrapped in blue plastic on top of our table. I knew right away it was mine but I still asked Mama just to make sure and she answered, "Hindi ko pinasok kasi baka may anthrax." Silly old lady. But I love her that way.

            As I was unwrapping the package, I got disappointed. The planner was not enclosed in a box, so its edges were somewhat tattered already. Sad. I wanted my planner to look perfectly new. With these edges, it's not so brand new looking at all. =(

            Since I can't do anything with the edges, I decided to just browse through the pages of my new planner. The design, the colors, the discount coupons, and the quotable quotes did not disappoint. The binding did, though. I got the book-bound type kasi. The binding isn't as sturdy and neat as my Starbucks Planner, pero keribels na lang. Next year, magbabalik-loob na lang ako dun sa spring-bound BDJ planner.

            I already tore my discount coupons from the planner. I really enjoyed tearing the perforated sheets. I'm oh so excited to use them! I hope to make good use of all these. Dati kasi, hindi ko nagamit lahat, probably around 10% of the coupons lang. This year, my goal is to use up more than 50% of these 60 coupons.

            Aside from the coupons, the planner comes with a lifestyle card din, so sulit na rin siguro yung 569Php na binayad ko. I swear, I'll make the most out of this costly planner. Yehey. Sana mag-2011 na! :)

            For more information about the BDJ Planner, you may visit
            Hoping, waiting, believing.

            My Confirmation :)

            Dear Juliet,

            I saw him today. He was flirting and cuddling and smooching with his new girl. I was shocked at first. I waited for the surge of pain. I braced myself. But after a while, I realized nothing came. And so, I continued moving to my destination, unaffected.

            *cue music*

            Hoping, waiting, believing.

            Tuesday, November 2, 2010

            Goofy sisters


            Dear Juliet,

            I started doing crunches yesterday night and this morning that's why I feel a bit sore on my abdominal area. To carry on with my "exercise" regimen, I decided to dance with my sister tonight, prior to my mandatory crunches before sleep.

            Megs has been practicing their dance routine for their Christmas party in the hospital. [IKR! Excited sila much?!] So we recorded our dance moves using Austin's cam and here we are. She is the star, while I'm the backup dancer. Pataasan na ito ng energy levels. LOL.

            Laugh at us all you want, but we did have fun. Mama even had a special participation on this video. LOL.

            Hoping, waiting, believing.

            Monday, November 1, 2010

            This is me being vain.

            Dear Juliet,

            I know this is too narcissistic, but please bear with me. I just wanted to say that today, I bade good-bye to my Mon-Confiado-like tresses. Haha! Isn't this great news? Better hair days are ahead, thanks to the buy-1-take-1 [yes, you know I'm cheap] hair treatment stuff I got from Watsons.

            At first, I wasn't really expecting good results from the said products. I initially got turned off by the ungrammatical application instructions at the back of the containers. But lo and behold, after one application, my hair tidied up and looked like hair for the first time in the last two months. Haha. I am just so glad =)

            Other random thoughts:
            ♥ Di ko mapigilan ang katakawan ko especially kapag nandito lang sa bahay. My tummy has grown big over the weekend. NOOOO! ;c

            ♥ I'm having problems with the courses I'm going to have this semester. I originally wanted to take 9 units. But then, oh well. Bahala na si Batman.

            ♥ Sana December na. I can't wait! November, please, pakibilisan lang, ha? Thanks!

            ♥ Next year will be my year. 2011, baby! :)

            ♥ Di pa rin ako inaantok! The worse part is that I'm craving for junks and San Marino Tuna Paella. Haha. I might take lambanog shots again. Para lang makatulog na at maiwasan ang pagkain ng kung anu-ano.

            ♥ Nababadtrip na ako sa 'yo ha? Pag ako nainis, isusubsob ko yang nguso mo sa nguso ko!!!

            Hoping, waiting, believing.

            Saturday, October 30, 2010

            Trick or Treat!

            Dear Juliet,

            Happy Halloween! I found myself cracking up as Clay went out, channeling the Edward Cullen vibe. This is from the sixth episode of OTH season 7. So, who are you gonna be today? In as much as I'd like to be Bella, well, my hair wouldn't fit the role. LOL.

            So, unlike Madelaine who’s enjoying life somewhere in Palawan and everyone else who have planned their vacation for Undas, I’m stuck here, in our humble, boring home. It’s going to be a long weekend, indeed. To make this battle—my stay at home—less dragging, I equipped myself with:

            I’ve been wanting to read good books. But since I’m reading all day at work, I decided to scratch reading for leisure off my to do list. Now that I’ve got four vacant days, I better make good use of it.

            The Tao of Pooh: This book was in my Christmas wish list last year. Or was it two years ago? Unfortunately, nobody got me the book. Since I’m in search for meaningful happiness, I thought this will be a good read. Pooh is really cute. I don’t really remember whether he’s really a HE, though.

            Oh, he’s a HE! “But his arms were so stiff... they stayed up straight in the air for more than a week, and whenever a fly came and settled on his nose, he had to blow it off. And I think—but I am not sure—that is why he is always called Pooh” (A.A. Milne, 1926).

            Eat, Pray, Love: My boss told me upon reading my blog that my September experience reminds her of this book. I guess that’s her way of lightening up my heartbreak during those low times. She encouraged me to do the same thing the author did. Who knows, I might end up with something significant (like a book), or in a cozy place, or with someone. Ayiieee =)

            I’ve missed out on a lot of movies. Good thing, we chanced upon the Odyssey sale in SMF. Haha, hooray for cheap VCDs! Here is my lame attempt on catching up:

            Corpse Bride ~ Wala lang. It’s just apt and in time for Halloween (at least for me). I’m not into horror movies eh. Yeah, I’m that scared. Haha.

            Eagle Eye ~ Now this one’s a suspense thriller I can handle. I think Shia is hot. That’s one reason why I got this. Plus, it’s a Steven Spielberg produced film, so it might not disappoint.

            What Happens in Vegas ~ I just needed a chick flick. I also wanted to see Ashton act.

            Brokeback Mountain ~ Yes, I’m that big a loser. I haven’t seen this yet. And now’s the time! Wuhoo.

            Hair treatment stuff
            I mentioned in a previous blog entry that my hair resembles that of Mon Confiado’s. I got salon treatments thinking my hair will become more manageable, but then the treatments did not work. I hope these do the trick to solve my predicament about being Bella. LOL.

            Belle de Jour
            Magbabalik-loob na ako sa Belle de Jour for 2011. I loved my 2010 Starbucks Planner, but BDJ is more girly and fun. I already placed my order and I'm oh so excited to see it. I'll spend my four days anticipating its arrival. Now this reminds me to drop by SM to deposit my payment. Rawr. Ang bilis maubos ng sweldo. Oh wait, shoot. Holiday nga pala. Hayz.

            Anyways, ayun lang. I’m wishing everyone to have a happy weekend! :)

            Hoping, waiting, believing.

            Monday, October 25, 2010

            23 years and counting ♥

            Dear Juliet,

            I was not expecting anything special for this day. I was convinced that I’m too old for birthday surprises. And since we’re broke, that’s enough reason to skip the celebrations this year. But even though there were no celebrations, that shouldn’t stop me from having birthday wishes, right? So my humble wish for my 23rd birthday is contentment, healing, and rebirth—the same thing a good old friend wished for me. I may also wish for an iPad or a DSLR, but nah, I think I could work for those. Besides, stuff that money can’t buy still matter the most, right? ;p

            Here’s how my “special” day went. This morning, my mom, as usual, was the first person to talk to me. This time, she wasn’t waking me up for work since it’s a holiday. Very convenient! She was poking me while cheerfully greeting me for my birthday. I paid her no attention and just turned on my side to continue sleeping.

            When I had enough sleep and felt the urge to get up and pee, Mama once again greeted me. She gave me a big hug and a kiss, and said, “23 is not too old, anak.” She was preparing something. The vegetables and chicken flakes gave away the obvious—she’s cooking pancit. Ah, for long life.

            So after the comfort room, I headed to the computer table right away. I was giddy and excited to see how many have greeted me already. I turned Austin on and freaked out when I saw how disorganized my desktop is. Only after a few seconds did it sink in. My sister deliberately altered my desktop to surprise me. She made a wall paper for me. Sweet! Since we were kids, we have this tradition of making cards and notes for our parents during special occasions. We would post it on the fridge or on their bedroom door. Thanks to technology, that tradition revolutionized as well. Here’s the wall paper Meagan made. Artsy, huh? She’s not really techy, so I’m wondering how she made this—Photoshop or Paint? I'd say PAINT! ;p

            Matapos kiligin for a while, I proceeded to check my Facebook. My notifications didn’t disappoint. My wall was flooded with birthday greetings. It’s kinda surprising considering that I’m not really sociable and yet these people remembered me. I guess I have the FB birthday reminder to thank. I was actually only expecting greetings from my really close friends. But hey FB friends, from the bottom of my heart, thank you for taking time to write your well wishes on my wall. Your greetings are very much appreciated. HUGS to all! :) Big hugs also go out to my girl friends who met with me yesterday. I so love the undergarment they bought for me. I love you girls! ♥

            Come nighttime, I patiently replied to all the FB wall messages. I thought I had to pay back the effort they exerted in typing “happy birthday” and clicking the “send” button. It somehow broke my heart that I had to call a college crush “kuya” though. :( But hey, at least he greeted me! KILIG! :) Now, should I mention how Madie’s heart broke when her college crush greeted me? Nah, I don’t think so. LOL.

            All in all, I was a bummer the whole day. I took the liberty to sleep whenever I can. I watched The Blind Side to make my day a little bit less boring. The movie was really moving. It inspired me to do something good to others. When I already have the resources, I sure will do the same thing as the Tuohys.

            COURAGE and HONOR. If there’s one valuable lesson I learned from the movie, that is to hope for courage and try for honor. Michael Oher is right. All of us can be courageous. But the question is, why are we being brave? Are we defying the odds for everybody’s benefit? or just for our own good? Are we stepping up to help others? or are we stepping on others to be able to go up?

            For my 23rd birthday, I found inspiration from Michael Oher. Because of him, I became firmer on keeping my moral compass straight and on being contented with what I have. From here on, I’ll try to always strive for honor. And so, I’m leaving you this text which happens to be my favorite from the movie.
            “Courage is a hard thing to figure. You can have courage based on a dumb idea or a mistake, but you’re not supposed to question adults, or your coach, or your teacher because they make the rules. Maybe they know best but maybe they don’t. It all depends on who you are, where you come from. Didn’t at least one of the six hundred guys think about giving up and joining with the other side? I mean, Valley of Death, that’s pretty salty stuff. That’s why courage is tricky. Should you always do what others tell you to do? Sometimes you might not even know why you’re doing something. I mean, any fool can have courage. But honor, that’s the real reason you either do something or you don’t. It’s who you are and maybe who you want to be. If you die trying for something important then you have both honor and courage and that’s pretty good.”
             Hoping, waiting, believing.

            Saturday, October 23, 2010

            Use somebody!

            Dear Juliet,

            When words are not enough to express how I feel, I resort to listening to music. Most of the time, nangungusap ang mga kanta sa akin. After a certain song ends, be it April Boy's or Lady Antebellum's, I'll be really amazed and realize, "Wow, now that song just summarized my current state of mind, if not my life." 

            I found this note on Facebook and instantly got interested in doing the activity. The songs on your media player are supposed to answer the questions. I really had fun answering this! I even related some titles and lyrics to my life. However, the last parts became really weird. The songs didn't connect at all. But then that's part of the game, right? Here it goes...

            –Read my POKER FACE by Lady Gaga
            [Haha. Taray!]

            –SINGLE LADIES by Beyonce
            [Oh well, hey, that’s my relationship status at least ;p]

            –I am a FIREWORK by Katy Perry

            –HALO by Beyonce
            [He has to be my saving grace daw: Everywhere I'm looking now / I'm surrounded by your embrace / Baby I can see your halo / You know you're my saving grace]

            Sabaw at Mani

            Dear Juliet,

            I've been meaning to write sensible entries these past few days, but my neurons are being difficult. Like me, they're acting crazy and are plain dysfunctional.

            I'm supposed to be editing a Physics answer key at the moment. It's due early morning tomorrow so I heavy-heartedly took it home and moped because of the fact that I don't really have to go to work tomorrow but I have to. I tried to read a few items, but then I freaked out upon seeing the sine, cosine, tangent functions. To calm myself down, I returned to the computer table and started exploring the fake Photoshop CS5 I installed yesterday.

            Back in college, I loved to edit pictures using Photoshop. Since I was acne-prone during those times, Photoshop was my best friend. It never failed to make me believe I'm beautiful. LOL. But now that I'm oh-so-perfect, Photoshop became handy in adjusting photo colors and adding artsy stuff to captured memories na lang. Here's one photo: 

            Madie is really one great buddy. I'm not really vocal to her about this, but she really has become a big part of my life. A lot of people have hurt me and have gone out of my life, but she remained. Ayus di ba? I guess that's one proof that at the end of the day, though things have changed, we should make an effort to have the good ones remain in our lives. Kaya naman I started sorting out memories. I junked those that won't help me live a better life and kept those that will strengthen my faith, my hope, my beliefs.

            Speaking of faith, I think I've been called. I think God wants me to be a servant of Him. Kasi lately, I've been entertaining thoughts of being a nun. And surprisingly, friends have been bringing up this topic [i.e. Madie and the nun directress who interviewed her, an FB status of an HS friend about nuns, etc.] Hhhhmmmm. Interesing! I'll get back on that thought when my neurons are no longer afloat in my mind's sabaw. [Hay. I'm re-reading this paragraph at tila nagulat din ako sa mga nababasa ko. Weird much, Debra?!]

            Hayun. I really have a lot to say. But then, I guess I'm either too tired or too sad or too confused or too lazy at the moment. All I can think of is getting a sleeve just like this one on the arm of American Idol Season 9's Megan Joy Corkery. FIERCE.

            But then again, if I were to have a tattoo like this, will I still be allowed to enter the convent? Ang sabaw lang di ba? Tapos di pa masarap yung mani na kinain namin ni mama kanina. Boo.

            P.S. Hi reader from Singapore! :)

            Hoping, waiting, believing.

            Monday, October 18, 2010

            I'm a critic of myself.

            Dear Juliet,

            This is me in pony schmony. I've decided to just tie my hair up [like during college] from this day on. That way, di ko mapapansing maiksi sya at magugulat na lang ako na mahaba na sya ulit. Hay. I so miss my long hair. I hope it grows long fast.

            Napapansin mo rin ba, Juliet? Ang pangit na talaga ng mukha ko. Sana pwede ma-maintain yung chubbiness ng face habang pinapapayat ko ang aking tummy at flabby arms and pata-ness. This thin [or so I think] face is not working for me. I'm starting to be convinced na maganda na lang ako under low light and on low-quality cameras [like Austin's VGA webcam]. Haha. You know those bad-face days when you feel you're not beautiful? These days are that.

            So I've been experiencing a lot of changes lately; most of which are not really stuff to be proud of. For one, I'm starting to get sick. It's not normal for me to get down with flu. However, my body resistance has been failing lately. I guess this is a sign that I should go back to eating normally. But then, if I go back to eating normally, I'll get fat and I don't want to get fat. Huhu. But I have to work out on my eating habits. I'll make sure to find a way. Promise!

            Also, my eyebags are starting to get really scary. Sadly, they have now evolved to zombie eyebags. Since I can't get rid of them right away, the only solution I could think of is to hide them under my nerdy glasses. After all, I haven't been using my contact lenses lately. But I also really, really have to find a way to fix this, especially because I'm planning on getting me a new eye color soon. Hay. I can't afford to lose my charming eyes to zombie eyebags. I just can't. LOL.

            I've been too stressed out lately too, probably because of my deliberate choice to starve myself. For some unexplainable reasons, I'll just snap at my mom or my sister because of petty matters. I'm just really lucky they always understand that my days have been really hectic and that I've been under too much work and school pressure. Hay. Lucky me. I gotta love my family. ♥

            Another sign of stress is that I wake in the middle of the night finding myself drooling in an OA kinda way. It's really gross but I can't help it. How can I stop myself from drooling when I'm asleep and not aware of it, right? Now how do I solve that problem?

            Lastly, I think I'm now a jejegirl. Di ba Madelaine? And I'm enjoying it. Madie even called me the linguist jejemon. Right on! Jejejeje.

            Hay nakhowz. I'm just glad I'm finally done with my first sem in school. At least I'll have some time to breathe now.

            Smile. Breathe. Smile. Breathe.
            Hoping, waiting, believing.

            Saturday, October 16, 2010


            Dear Juliet,

            I am two hours and 45 minutes away from taking one final exam. I haven't reviewed yet and here I am, talking to you. Hay. You know that mood when you just don't want to pressure yourself from doing something which you don't enjoy? I'm definitely in that mood for the last few days. I always postpone reviewing for watching my favorite series, sleeping, seeing friends, hanging out with my sister, reading blogs, and other useless bumming-around activities. I know I'm being irresponsible, but I just want to make myself happy. Yes. Weirdly, I think I find bliss in procrastination. Wow, I am so doomed!

            I just wish I'm one of those uberly motivated persons. I wish I have the right attitude to persevere so that someday, I'll have the chance to tell my rags to riches story. However, with the indifference and laziness I have regarding important matters in my life, I definitely am not certain if I'll ever get somewhere.

            How can I motivate myself then? I need help; divine intervention. I hope God helps me realize that studying will do me a lot of good things. I hope God helps me remember why I wanted to do this in the first place. I hope God hits me with a frying pan in the head so that the fact that I'm doing this for myself and my family sticks and reverberates in my brain.

            Hay! I better go now.

            Motivation. Motivation. Motivation.
            Positivity. Positivity. Positivity.

            Hoping, waiting, believing.

            Thursday, October 14, 2010

            Happy birthday MEAGAN!

            Alam kong mahal mo ako maski hindi mo sinasabi, maski ayaw mo magpakiss, maski ayaw mo magpahug. Mahal din naman kita, sister dear. Maraming salamat sa pagsundo mo sa akin sa Gumbo. Simula nung araw na iyon, lubos na nadama kong nag-aalala ka pala sa akin. Salamat sa pang-iinis, sa pagpapatawa, at sa pagpapaload mo sa akin palagi. Maraming salamat sa pakikinig mo sa akin. Maraming sa pagdamay mo sa akin. Maraming salamat sa mga food trip na libre mo. Maraming salamat sa panlilibre mo sa akin kapag malungkot ako. Maraming salamat sa lahat ng tulong mo sa akin. Maraming salamat sa pagpapahiram mo sa akin ng mga gamit mo. Maraming salamat sa mga bonding. Salamat sa pagmamahal na hindi mo maamin. LOL. Hindi ko man nasasabi, pero sobrang naeenjoy kitang kasama, lalo na ngayon. Haha.

            Sana maging mas masaya tayo bilang magkapatid. Sana mas tumatag tayong dalawa kahit tumanda na tayo. Sana hindi lang ako yung open sa iyo. Sana matutuhan mo rin na maging open sa akin about your life. Maaasahan mo naman ako. Hayun. Salamat sa lahat, kapatid. I lab you!

            Magkamukha naman pala tayo eh. Mwah ♥

            Hoping, waiting, believing.