Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Quickie: An Entry on Willing Things

The title does not connote anything sexual. It's just how I want to describe how this entry was made--quick.

• I was able to conquer my fear! I got my contact lenses the day after my sister got hers. It was just a matter of wanting something and willing to do anything to be able to achieve it. Another item checked in my bucket list--contact lenses [and better eyesight].

• Mama and I won a stand fan last Sunday, during the community bingo. Like my first item, I wanted badly to win the fan for my mama since she expressed her interest on it. I thought, it will make mama happy, so I willed to win it, and luckily, we got it. I always thought I am malas on games of chance. My will probably overpowered that kamalasan, I guess.

• I finally got back to school. I'm taking up two prerequisite courses this semester. [My work schedule only permitted two.] I am still on conditional status. I have to complete 9-12 units of core courses and maintain an average of 2.0 to become a full time MA student. I have to say, my classes and this whole new experience in general are challenging. As I am coming from a very lax undergraduate environment, being in UP is a total pressure. It's quite difficult to catch up with classmates who already have background on the course and who are English majors, to start with. Plus, it's quite tricky figuring out how to manage my time since I have a crazy workload. But then again, if I will to succeed on this undertaking, definitely, things will work out just fine. It's just a matter of adjusting and persevering. There's no room for being complacent and for the "bahala na" attitude I had back in college.

These experiences made me realize how powerful one's will is. I always hear people quoting Paulo Coelho as far as this notion is concerned--that the universe conspires in helping one achieve a dream. I think it's pretty much the same as The Secret--that the "law of attraction" is most powerful; that one has to attract positive results to be able to achieve them.

live.love.learn.LOL
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Monday, June 14, 2010

Frustrated

I wish I weren't a scaredy cat.

My sister and I were at Executive Optical awhile ago. We were ready to get ourselves contact lenses. I was so excited about this. I even wanted colored contacts. However, after the eye check-up, I had to try out the lenses to see if the color suits me. The coward in me outshone my excited, determined self earlier.

Hence, my sister and I left EO without my desired contacts. Kudos to my brave sister who successfully got her lenses in. I know she, too, is disappointed of me. *Tears*

Oh well. I just can't stick anything into my eyes. I don't even wear eyeliner because I'm really scared to hurt my eyes. SAD.

I'll muster courage first before I go back to EO. Goodluck, me.

live.love.learn.LOL
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Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Hunyo, June-yo ;)

As my first post for June, here's a personality profile I came across with at Facebook. I couldn't agree more with the results. This is me. And I'm comfortable with who I am.

I made comments after each interpretation. I just find this really interesting because at most times, I find it hard to describe myself. This helped me find the right adjectives and descriptions for myself.


My Personality Profile

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50
100
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Openness
50%
Conscientiousness
88%
Extraversion
31%
Agreeableness
75%
Neuroticism
25%

Openness

This trait refers to the extent to which you prefer novelty versus convention. Approximately 5% of respondents have a lower openness raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who is down-to-earth and prefers things to be simple and straightforward. You might say that it just makes life easier if things don't change unnecessarily, that the arts are of no practical use to you, and that you think tradition is more important than others do.

Reflective question: How do you react to change?

♥ True, I'm a very secretive, traditional, and conservative person in terms of my relationships, my clothing preference, my views, and my principles in life. However, I believe this trait does not hinder my progress. I very easily adapt to change, too. And I embrace changes that are beneficial to me and my loved ones.

Conscientiousness

This trait refers to the extent to which you prefer an organised, or a flexible, approach in life. Approximately 95% of respondents have a lower conscientiousness raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who is a perfectionist. From your responses it appears that you prefer to plan everything to the last detail, which has consequently led to you being very successful and extremely reliable. From your responses it appears that more than most you enjoy seeing your long-term plans come to fruition.
Reflective question: How does being in an untidy environment make you feel?

♥ Though the interpretation focused on being OC, I believe being conscientious truly means choosing the right thing over the wrong. Sure I have made mistakes. But as much as possible, I stick to what I believe is moral. I prefer to do things the "clean" way and I don't deceive others in order to gain material things.

Extraversion

This trait refers to the extent to which you enjoy company, and seek excitement and stimulation. Approximately 5% of respondents have a lower extraversion raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who is quiet and somewhat withdrawn. Your answers describe you as someone who doesn't need lots of other people around to have fun, and can sometimes find that people are tiring.
Reflective question: How do you like to spend your spare time?

♥ Most of the time, I am just a wall paper. I prefer spending the day with my mom and sister than go to crowded bars. I prefer to watch a movie with my boyfriend than mingle with new acquaintances. I find it easier to be talkative in front of long-time friends and find it difficult to mingle with crowds. I am really an extrovert ever since I was a child. This explains why I only keep a few good friends.

Agreeableness

This trait refers to the way you express your opinions and manage relationships. Approximately 76% of respondents have a lower agreeableness raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who people get along with easily. Your responses suggest that you would say you are considerate and friendly, and think that other people are generally honest and decent.
Reflective question: Is your co-operative preference ever taken advantage of by others?

♥ I am very unsuspecting towards others. I would not have a clue on who is a good person and who has bad motives. I try my best best to get along with people by being as friendly as I can be. And since I'm generally shy, it's really difficult for me to say NO to others. In fact, I have been told that my being "overly kind" may be abused. Now, I have learned to choose which favors to accommodate and which ones to reject politely.  I now know how to stand up for myself, especially when I know I am right.

Neuroticism (Emotional stability)

This trait refers to the way you cope with, and respond to, life's demands. Approximately 16% of respondents have a lower neuroticism raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who is calm and emotionally stable. Based on your responses, you come across as someone who is rarely bothered by things, and when they do get you down the feeling does not persist for very long.

Reflective question: When do your emotions (or lack of emotions) get in the way of good decision making?

♥ I have this mechanism that works when my boyfriend and I fight. I psyche myself not to be upset and feel bad. I think I have successfully channeled this mechanism in life in general. I now don't feel panicky when given too much work load. I no longer feel very nervous in front of  my bosses. I am no longer affected by nosy people. As much as possible, I keep my calm in everything I do. Maybe I have grown indifferent. I don't know, but this trait works for me very well. It doesn't really affect my decision making as I let my mind work, not my emotions, on that aspect.

live.love.learn.LOL
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