Monday, February 14, 2011

Vday L♥VE!

Dear Juliet,

I wasn't really expecting anything for this day, but as my friend puts it, God sends angels to make a day or two in our lives extra special. Here's what my angel said to me today.
Nung mga panahong bago pa lang ang sugat sa 'yo, hinangad ko talagang mabilis ang maging paghilom. Kung kaya ko lang, kinuha ko na. Hindi dahil mabuti akong tao. Hindi dahil sobrang close natin. Kundi dahil alam kong hindi mo deserve yun. Alam kong hindi patas na kung sino pa yung nagmamahal ng totoo, siya pa ang kinakawawa. Tanggap ko na bahagi talaga ng pag-ibig ang masaktan pero may choices ang mga tao kung sila mismo ang mananakit sa mga taong nagmamahal sa kanila, at napakawalang kwenta niyang tao para saktan ka, Hindi ko sya kilala ng lubos. Sigurado akong marami rin siyang naging mabuting katangian. Kaya nga minahal mo siya di ba? Pero hindi talaga kasi tama. At aaminin kong bias ako kasi ang alam ko lang ay ang pinakamasasama niyang ginawa.


Kung pwede ko lang iedit ang isang aspect ng buhay mo na labis na nakasakit sa 'yo, pipili ako ng pinakakarapat-dapat na taong magpaparamdam sa 'yo ng tunay mong halaga. Pero habang absent pa ang taong yun, sana maramdaman mo rin sa mga taong nakapaligid sa 'yo kung gaano ka kahalaga sa kanila. Sigurado akong napakaraming nagmamahal sa 'yo.
We had this thing in the office called Valentine Kringle. Ms. Anna was my secret Valentine and she gave me my favorite praline chocolate! With her present was this moving "love letter" which really made me cry.


Everytime I re-read her letter, which was two pages by the way, tears come down my face--not because the letter reminds me of the pain I went through, but because it is a reminder of how valuable I am as a person, a workmate, a daughter, a friend.

It was from Ms. Anna that I got the idea about angels. She's always thankful and appreciative of people who  help her in one way or another, of people who make her happy. She believes in her angels, but the truth she's not aware of is, she herself is an angel to a lot of people. Her heart is just so full of good intentions. And I can attest to that. Her beliefs, principles, and attitudes in life made her one of my favorite persons. In a non-lesbian way, I can say that I so love this person! She was one of the persons who kept me going during the hardest time of my life. She was witness to my life's "battles" and I'm really lucky she was by my side then.

Who needs a guy for V-day when people who love you make you feel special even more than a boyfriend could? God, I am so blessed!

Mula sa kaibuturan ng puso ko, salamat Ms. Anna! Napakalaking bagay nito para sa akin. Alam kong nampressure pa ako nung mga nakaraang araw dahil sa mga pagpaparinig ko sa nakabunot sakin, pero  this is more than what I was expecting. Sobrang hindi ko inaasahang mapapaiyak mo ako. Haha! Maraming salamat talaga. Napakabuti mong tao at wala akong ibang hangad kundi ang matanggap mo lahat ng makakapag pasaya sa iyo because you also deserve happiness. Hangad ko rin na matagpuan mo ang lalaking makakapagpaintindi sa 'yo kung ano talaga ang "konsepto" ng pagmamahal. Sana matagpuan mo na ang J***n ng buhay mo--yung karapatdapat at totoo.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

This morning, I was also texting with another girl I love so much, in a non-lesbian kind of way. Madie told me the song of the year is Lady Antebellum's Need You Now. I told her I love that song, especially the part which has this lyrics: "It's a quarter after one I'm a little drunk and I need you now." I said it reminds me of my alcohol frenzy at Gumbo. Haha.

Good thing Madie was there when I needed her the most. Even without proper sleep, she came to help me during my most wasted, drunken state. She said she was really disgusted of me that time though, and I quote: "LOL @ Gumbo haha. alam m bang masuka suka din ako nun kaya natatawa c clara habang naglilinis kme e."

I swear, I was a mess that time. Even with puke all over my hair, Madie and Clara hugged and comforted me when I came back to consciousness. I'm so blessed having such great friends. And then there are my high school friends who also inspired me so much. I love them all!

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Everything about this day is such a blessing. Today, I was also given a project--something that will challenge my capabilities and eventually give me cash. Yehey! Thank you, Papa God! You're the best!

Love letter, chocolatesss, and a SHOT GLASS
for Vday. How cool is that? :)

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ 

If I had a significant other at this time, this would be my song for him. Wherever you are, we'll see each other soon. But for now, let this song go out to my family whose unwavering love for me made me a better, stronger person. Mama, Daddy, and Megs, ILOVEYOU!

If Tonight Is My Last
Laura Izibor


If an angel came down to me, asked what I would do differently
I would say nothing, you see, I love someone truly
And if I do not see tomorrow, you know it's gonna be alright
'Cause I got my baby right by my side


And if the rain ain't falling and the sun ain't shining
It makes no difference to me I'm right where I wanna be


And if tonight is my last what I gotta do?
And if tonight is my last I wanna spend it with you
And if the sky fall's down it's gonna be alright
'Cause I got you here tonight


If I had to give all that I own
In return for the love that's grown
I would give it gladly 'cause nothing else compares
To the moments that we shared


And if the rain ain't falling and the sun ain't shining
It makes no difference to me I'm right where I wanna be


And if tonight is my last what I gotta do?
And if tonight is my last I wanna spend it with you
And if the sky fall's down it's gonna be alright
'Cause I got you here tonight


Only given a short time on this earth
You gotta make each moment worth something beautiful
You gotta give every bit of you for the love
Half just won't do


And if tonight is my last what I gotta do?
And if tonight is my last I wanna spend it with you
And if the sky fall's down it's gonna be alright
'Cause I got you here tonight


If tonight is my last what I gotta do?
(It's gonna be alright, it's gonna be alright)
If tonight is my last I wanna spend it with you
(It's gonna be alright, it's gonna be alright)
And if the sky fall's down it's gonna be alright
(It's gonna be alright, it's gonna be alright)
Because I got you here tonight, here tonight
(It's gonna be alright, it's gonna be alright)


It's gonna be alright


If an angel came down to me, asked what I would do differently
I would say nothing, you see, I love someone truly

Hoping, waiting, believing.
★ Happidezz

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