Saturday, October 29, 2011

Pihikan nga ba ako?

Dear Juliet,

It was a week-long celebration for me at our office! I love my workmates! [Well, most days, I do. Haha!] Last night, we celebrated my birthday in our favorite videoke-slash-inuman place. We had so much fun! I was the last girl standing. Most of the ladies in our office are married, so they don't really prioritize partying over their families. Only four girls were there and one by one, the three left. Before I asked the guys to drive me home, they asked me why I was still single. "Sa ganda mong 'yan? Bakit wala kang boyfriend?" I didn't know what to say. I also ask that to myself. I mean, ang ganda ko naman talaga, di ba? What is wrong? Wahaha.

Then, they asked further, "Baka naman kasi pihikan ka sa lalaki?" Well, I can't really say that I am pihikan. Looking back, my ex boyfriends weren't really close to what I envision as my ideal man. In fact, none of them were ideal. So, if I were pihikan, I wouldn't be with these not-so-ideal guys.

Let's just say I have standards--superficial ones. I want someone who's taller and older than I am. He has to look presentable. He has to wear clothes of my taste (no crotch-hugging skinny jeans and pointed white shoes, please). He has to speak and write decent English. He has to be respectful to women, not just to me. He has to be future-oriented. He has to be honest; not pretentious. He has to be sweet. He has to be a gentleman. ETC. Also, ayoko yung mga tagilid ang sexuality at yung mga mahilig magsuot ng multi-colored plaid tokong shorts, haha. [Click here for a more detailed ayoko list. Hahahaha!]

Once again, an officemate asked me about another officemate's chances with me. I said, "Bata pa yan e. He's a good guy, but I just see him as my little brother." My officemate immediately responded, "Ah, wala naman yan sa edad e. Kung gusto mo, gusto mo talaga. So, wala. Di mo trip si *tooot* ha?"

I see this officemate's point. At the end of the day, these superficial standards are nothing once I've found the man I see myself growing old with. At the end of the day, when I like a guy, I just like him. Period. He may be younger, he may be shorter, he may wear tokong shorts, but when I like him, I can disregard my long list of standards just like that. Hehehe! Isa pa, sabi nga ng officemate ko, "Ang lalaking para sa iyo ay yung lalaking gagawin ang lahat para sa iyo. Pag nahanap mo yun, di na importante ang edad. Pag gusto mo, gusto mo." TAMA!

I keep telling people that I'm not rushing myself into love. Right now, I'm very much contented with what I have. I don't have to be in a relationship to feel loved and special. My friends are there to make me feel loved and special. I love myself and I consider myself special. That's all that matters. It's great to be single. Yes, I miss being in a relationship once in a while, but the pros of being single outweigh the cons. I just love that I can do things on my own way and on my own terms. FREEDOM! :)

Mukhang bangkay yung mukha ko kapag sobrang payat. Hahay.

Hoping, waiting, believing.
★ Happidezz

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

I Would Like to Thank My Sponsors for My BIRTHDAY Celebrations

Dear Juliet,

I turned 24 today! Oh. My. Gulay! My senior workmates kept telling me that I'm still so young. But I feel otherwise. I feel so old! Haha. 

Anyway, if you're interested to know how my day went, well, it was HAPPY and DANDY! What did I do? Nagtrabaho at nagpalaki ng puwet. Yes. Todo pwet exercise aka "lunges" ang lola nyo sa gym. Nagbaka-sakali lang ako kasi baka ibigay sakin ni Lord ang hinahangad kong pwet sa aking kaarawan. Flat kasi ang butt ko, mana sa aking inay. Haha.

Ok, now, dahil birthday ko naman, please allow me to narrate today's events. I was woken up by a call from an officemate. He greeted me and asked where our little office tropa will celebrate. I told him I don't know yet; I don't have money as I am DUKHA. He then told me to just spend the day with my family and promised that we're going to celebrate my birthday at Elyong's--a favorite inuman place of ours. I'm sure my officemates and I will have a great time! I'm excited! Sponsored ni officemate ang celebration na ito, I assume. Wuhoo! Thank God for generous officemates!

After the call, I got a big hug from Mommy. She thanked the Lord for my 24 years on Earth. Then, I started to receive messages from officemates and friends. They're the sweetest! I also opened my Facebook account to see my wall flooded with birthday greetings. To everyone of you who spent time to type a short birthday message for me, THANK YOU! ♥

At the office, the mood was upbeat. Everybody greeted me with smiles on their faces. Our dear CEO called and told us that he has meryenda for everyone since it's my and Ms. Tina's birthday. True enough, he came to the office with cake and palabok. YUM! So, kahit wala akong handa for my birthday, I had an instant sponsored office celebration. Maraming salamat sa aming boss. Saan ka naman makakaita ng CEO na nagpapakain para sa birthday ng empleyado nya, diba? I'm so lucky! I also received another cake and a birthday card from my officemates. Awesome! Our president also gave me a little gift and proclaimed her her birthday wish for me. She wished that I find a rich guy to be my boyfriend. Haha. Funny how everyone wished the same for me. Lahat yata ng tao concerned sa love life ko! Nakakatawa ;p

At the gym, I joined the spinning class. And then one of my friends brought tukneneng and kikiam for snacks. While we were eating, I told them it was my birthday. Their reactions were priceless! Haha. And then, after that, I worked my butt off--literally. Lunges, remember? Sakit tuloy ng pwet ko ngayon.

 After gym, a very generous gym mate treated us to Shawarma. Isn't that amazing?! I didn't really have plans for a gym celebration but I got another sponsorship! Buti na lang di type ni gym mate ang ulam nila sa bahay kaya nagyaya sya ng shawarma. Yehey! While waiting for gym mate to arrive, the gym instructors played music and put on the disco lights. I danced like a crazy woman. Haha. It was a happy night.

At home, I ate my cake with Mama and Mogs. I told them about my day and they listened intently. Though I went home late, I didn't get scolded. Birthday ko kasi, buti na lang :)

Overall, this day made me feel special. Special, in a good way--not the special-child-si-Dez kind of way. I realized how much people loved me. I wasn't really expecting anything for this day. I expected it to pass as an ordinary day, but people close to me made it extraordinary. They made sure that I am happy on my special day. And for these people, I am very thankful. I feel loved! Oh well, irresistible kasi talaga ang charms ko. I'm so adorable. Bwahahaha.

O, walang kokontra. Birthday ko naman ;p To end this entry, let me quote Nathan Scott:

"I realize now that when your heart breaks, you got to fight like hell to make sure you're still alive... 'cos you are. And that pain you feel? That's life. The confusion and fear? That's there to remind you that somewhere out there is something better and that something is worth fighting for."

I have to say, THIS LIFE IS WORTH FIGHTING FOR. Everything in my HERE and NOW is something worth fighting for. I'm so proud of myself for not giving up last year. I'm so glad I fought like hell. PAK!

Hoping, waiting, believing.
★ Happidezz

Monday, October 24, 2011

What is Wrong with Me?

Dear Juliet,

My deadline for my terminal paper in Structures of English is TODAY and I have not yet written a single word for it. I keep stalling. Though I know that I'll get in big trouble for delaying my writing, I still procrastinate. I am so unmotivated. 

Kahapon, nakuha ko pang mag-gym at tumambay sa SM sa kabila ng deadline ko. Kagabi, nakuha ko pa mag-upload ng pictures sa kabila ng pagiging gipit na sa oras. Ngayon, nakukuha ko pang mangblog sa kabila ng katotohanang maaari akong ma-INCOMPLETE sa subject na ito. There is something wrong with me!

I pray that God touches my mind and heart today so that I will be able to accomplish every thing expected of me. I am hopeless. I need divine intervention. Please pray for me.

Hoping, waiting, believing.
★ Happidezz

Thursday, October 20, 2011

It's That Time of the Month

Dear Juliet,

This is what I hate about being a girl--being hormonal and emotional when my monthly visitor is about to come. So last night, I was feeling oh so sad. I thought I needed to let all the bad vibes out and have a good cry. And so, I watched ONE MORE CHANCE. Hahaha. That movie and Time Traveller's Wife never fail to make me cry. They're my go to movies whenever I feel the need to cry.

For the first time after a long time, I wept, with uhog effects pa talaga. This part of the movie is the most striking for me.

"Baka kaya tayo iniiwan ng mga taong mahal naten, kase baka merong bagong darating na mas OK, na mas mamahalin tayo, yung taong hindi tayo sasaktan at paaasahin, yung nagiisang taong magtatama ng mali sa buhay naten, nang lahat ng mali sa buhay mo."
Tagos, pare. Tagos! Feeling ko talaga akong ako si Popoy eh. Everything he felt, I felt. Wahahaha! Lecheng PMS to, oo! ;p

Hoping, waiting, believing.
★ Happidezz

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

CEBU Part1: Kids These Days

Dear Juliet,

Remember my last post about kids (#2 of this entry)? Let me reiterate my fervent hope:
I really hope kids these days can just act as normal kids. With normal, I mean just being at school, doing homework, obeying their elders, maintaining their innocence, being afraid of their parent's wrath once they commit grave mistakes. You know, I wish they could be just the kind of kids who are not in a rush to grow up; kids who have young yet healthy thoughts, spirits, hearts.
I'm writing about this again because of a recent encounter with a kid who is around 3 years old. We just boarded the plane. We were bound for our short vacation in Cebu. I noticed this little girl behind my seat. I thought she and her father were adorable. Her father was diverting her attention from the take-off. They were cute while talking to each other and laughing, so I dismissed the fact that the kid was kind of a disturbance because she was pushing my seat with her feet the whole duration of the flight. I wasn't able to have my precious sleep.

All was well and cutesy. Until out of the blue, the girl said: 


I was shocked. Those words sounded like my favorite Jollibee Chicken Joy--Malutong! Crispy-licious talaga! And that's coming from a 3-year old kid! I wanted to confront the father and ask, "Really? You're ignoring that? You're allowing your child to say those words? You're not going to correct it?" Tsk! The child repeated those cuss words like five times, I guess. Disappointingly, the father didn't call the kid's attention to tell her that it's not appropriate to say those things.

NAKU! I wish all the parents out there are careful with what they teach their kids. Really. If I were a parent, I would wash my daughter's mouth with soap and alcohol if I ever hear her say those kinds of words (of course, that's a hyperbole). NAKU talaga.

It's a good thing my adorable niece is only one year old. She hasn't made clear utterances yet. Plus, she only understands English, so it's a relief that these Pinoy cuss words are out of her vocabulary. Baby Rana will grow up as a good person, just like her Ninang. Ahem! :)

Hoping, waiting, believing.
★ Happidezz

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Birthday Month ♥

Dear Juliet,

It was Daddy Eduardo's bday yesterday, Mama Teresa's bday today, and sister Mea Meagan's bday tomorrow :) HAPPINESS! 

Soon, it's gonna be my birthday too, and I'm turning 24! I FEEL SO OLD!

Anyway, this is a busy October for me. Notice that it's mid October already and I'm only writing my first entry of the month today? I'm that busy. Rawr! May God guide me and give me all the sipag I'll need--take home final exam later, sit-in final exam tomorrow, CEBU over the weekend (WOOT!), work stuff, and then 2 terminal papers just before my birthday. Great!

Hoping, waiting, believing.
★ Happidezz